misses everyONE

2008-01-16T03:43:00.000-08:00

hihi
ytd was funn i guess..
hmm went t help out meiyi in ballroom 2 when i go..
lols oni put table colth and set slowly..
hmm.. then was called by man t set table for amber..
lols 11 tables and me alone?
omg kill me man..
hmm was busily settin the plates..
when randall ran past ask me wad i doin?
i:oh settin for amber (fainting) 11tables leh
he: huh?! 11? wow do until siao is it? u like tat prepare sure die one
i: lols u don talk so much,, help me prepare 11 tables de chopstick ba..
he: lols.. wow chopstick again.. ok..
i: thanks ar:D
then set finish le.. too heavy how t push?
i: saifu! help me push :0
he: o ok
then reach there le
he: thanks you
i was huh?
orh thank u too:D
haha he so funny..
anw bad news meiyi came and say
xianghui! wad u doin?
i: o settin up for amber
she: huh no u workin diamond todae
i: ya i noe
she: then u no nid set up for there is it?
i: huh nid set ar?
she: nid la two tables all narumi
i: huh...(faint)
then call randall help me prepare two tables chopstick
haha.=X so bad.
hmm anw prepare till half way kumaran came..
brought me t diamond..finally i noe where libai
hmm wow diamond was nice. but smal.
lols things alr prepared.
got me bazlin jerry and zulhelmi doin..
sian lols..don feel like servin.. zul wanted t serve
haax whole nite was fast
seriously fast
we started arnd 7.. and 5th dish was serve when its oni 730pm
kumaran then stop us all..
lols
it all ended arnd 830pm
when upstairs just started first dish
haax then turn over for tml seminer
then 9pm oni
then kumaraN let us slack then went pearl room turn over fo seminer..
haha lols sian.. but 1040 we can go back alr..
lols stupid lao kok kok nv help me..
i been cut eat time again lols..
but nvm la..
hmm..
todae was a sad day
superly sad,,
don wanna say..

im nervous.
nervous for wadever comin...

da huai ren : xie xie ni.

mood:angered:(

2008-01-13T03:03:00.000-08:00

hihi
haha this time fast update..
hmm cos not workin alr.. got la nxt tues..
but last day for this month..
maybe after results will go back work..
anw i feel tat like gettin more useless t go back le..
cos nobody left there..
hmm everyone would be gg back t their countries when i go back work..
and having ask chen chen he wont be comin back t work..
lols he say too tiring,
eh u man lols..=.= haha anw dono la..
but thanks for being listener.
xiaouncle also wont be workin.
he too busy w his steady work at some IT company.
really missed him so..
anw work last thurs..
went there w jerry..
saw lorrainne and randall..
went t do buffet w meiyi
get t noe a staff from dining room callled dream
nice name.. and she's funn!
ltr saifu ask me t go prepare vip for nxt day food tasting..
when i was preparing i found tat everyone had gone t help at ballroom
lols left me doin alone at topaz..
tat nite was staff's weddin bigg bosses there..
however got two spillage happen..
first is randall who spill water at ppl..
and jolin told me the person got so mad..
and said loudly t others tat "nowadays young ppl are so rude"
lols so bad seh..he also not purposely one lols..
tommy den gave the person a free red wine in return.
second is jerry..
spilled chicken on the person shirt..=.=
tat person was a lawyer..
so sway for him then..
murugne was so damn mad tat day..
on fridae
went w jerry t work again
saw lorrainne again..=.=
hate t see her
anw she w her another new fren. took over eugene as he not comin
and saw lesile also..
went help out at buffet under meiyi
w ella and ray
we waited and waited eagerly for ppl t go..
then we have buffet haha..
however kenny dennis man saifu and shorty came in t eat..
had my fav sushi and octopus !yums*
after tat everyone again went t help out at ballroom
man then asked me t help him do turn over
saifu was there too..
me again alone doin turn over
this time not one table but 8table
lols.. i went down b3 for 5times.
tabel 8 super heavy table clothes
then checker layer clothes.
lols then after tat arnd 4 plus le then i go help kumaran w ballroom.
but was ask t go down take napkins
200 triangles for tml buffet
but kumaran v good
always give me rest alot de work..
so me xingxiu peter went behind t fold napkins.=]
in the nite was more funn
except the part when i had t serve cocktail
i don like..and i had just said a min ago and
nxt min kumaran ask me do cocktail.
lols..i don like if had known earlier i should hav ask kumaran t spare me from cocktail i rather do presentation..lols
cos kumaran was in charge haha..
he so good lols gave me table 17 which is the oni table nearest t the door..
it was dinner and dance function
and everythin went alrite
except tat i was so tired
but everythin was really alrite..
oh..i baibai bei lao kok kok step one foot..
lols i was takin the fish and went behind kumaran and kok weng..
dono why he tok t kumaran also can step back
and step on my foot..
so pain lols..
haha he so funny la w tat sry expression..
he so lao kok kok..
when he nv gell his hair he looks so nerd haha..
i told him he just say
he:" why leh"
he:"how do i look"
me:"haha weird and haha funny"
he:"lols anythin (proud)"
lols he so diao..
but he there laugh onli..
he so lazy la..stupid lao kok kok..
he so ass oni noe how t ask me do this do tat..
then slack himself
hmm tues was exception.
yusreen said nxt tues got 4 dinner..and lack of staff
so i was asked t help out..
aiya one more day oni nvm haha..
anw liushuang peter simon they all were glad i gg on tues..
they said if nv work they miss me..
opps!i shy*
haha hmm.. i also miss them much..
anw from the first time saw them was so scary cos they look feirce..
esp peter who doesn even say a hi or smile lols..
so bad lols.. but now he able t tok and smile haha!
my favourite is simon!
he super cute can..
and friendly.. now he learnin english haha..
sometimes teach him i really can L.O.L
not being bad..
he really learn till v funny ler.
anw there everyone is nice..xingxiu is nice too..
she's like a sister rather than i mother t me..
she even gt qq,msn,yahoo and had penpal who chats online..
wow.. cool man.. my mum doesnt even noe how t on a comp lols..
she's too cool alr haha.
so long nv see qian qian susu chenchen
lols told susu i wont be workin ask her miss me.
she although said ok but hor she add don forget the promised sushi..
lol..wow she oni rmb sushi..no is oni rmb eat things..
haha i can laugh till stomachache lols..
she so cute...
tell liushuang she sure kena scold lols haha..
anw will made again for them ba..
hope when i go chenchen qianqian simon peter sam xingxiu liushuang and susu would be there..
may hav t do it fast..
chenchen they all gg back for new yr le..

i always get emotions feelings mixed..
i cant differentiate whether its like or just innocent friendship..
tats why i always got so hurt..
am i stupid..no brain t think de ba..
hais.

though nothin works out..
bu yao tao bi hao bu hao.
wo zhen de xiang hui dao yi qian
wo bu hui zai po huai wo men de you qing
er qe wo gen ben mei you ke yi po huai de mu di
bu yao zhe me dui wo hao ma.
yi kan dao wo de li wu hai zai locker
wo shi fen shang xin..
pengyou shuo wo yin gai ba qiao ke li huan ni
wo she bu de dan wo hui huan
wo hen xiang zhi dao qiao ke li shi song gei sui
peter ma?
ni bu lai wo hao xiang ni
bu zhi ni de xin gong zuo hai hao ma.
xiang gen yi qian yi yang
yi xia ban jiu da gei ni
gen ni su shuo zuo gong de shi qing
dan xian zai..
sui ran liu shuang shuo wo yin gai ou er lian luo ni
dan ni yao wo zeng yang lai gen ni shuo hua.
shuo se me?
xiao gugu shuo peter lili dou zhi dao le.
dan bu zhi na tian de shi..
wo hao bu gan zai qu..
ni mei zai wo yong ni de locker
mei tian dui ze ta..kan dao xie bu jian dan li wu hai zai..
wo hen shang xin.
wo ye nan guo ni bu zai
wo hai xiang ni.
dan ni bing bu zhi dao.
xiao gugu shuo xi huan ren shi tong ku de
rang ren xi huan shi zui hao
dan rang yi ge ni bu xi huan de ren xi huan
bu shi yi yang tong ku ma..
zai gan qing shang wo yi zhi dou shi shu jia.
hai yi wei ni hui shi bu yi yang..
dan shi wo chuo le.
chenchen shuo ni gen ben bu xi huan wo.
shi ni de chuo,jiao wo bie sha le..
wo bu hui sha xia qu de.
wo hai shi xiang he ni zuo peng you.
hui dao yi qian ba.
bei dong nan hai.
bu yao tao bi yin wei hui shang hai de yi shang hai le.
xian zai wo men dou yi yang gang ga
dan wo hai shi hen xiang ni
xiang jian ni

da huai ren:xiexie ni, xi wang ni hui yi zhi zai wo sen bian...

mood:dangling*/:

2008-01-09T04:35:00.000-08:00

hihi
hmm wow now alr the 9th of jan le..
time files so fast..
just had my class chalet on the 4th jan..
hmm it was alrite but sad t say alot ppl dint turn up..
was so sad basha dint go..
hmm stayed the first nite..
it was kinda bored cos no games.
went back the nxt day cos actually wantin t go st t see schedule.
meet yonglin in the nite t go there tog..
lols cool man my brother hair..
its nice=]
hmm went back in the nite after bbq..
the bbq was terrible..
cos charcoal fault..
but at last everyone enjoyed.
hmm haven been workin for one or so week..
and im bored t death alr..
been gg t my mum place t help out w cousin..
so sian lols..
imagine sittin there for 10hrs..
i rather go work banquet lols..
but anw no choice.
bookin full and nid help out..
but tml gg work..
anw planned t work till this fri and stop..
cos nid help out so have t stop..
will start after gettin results ba..
so hmm shall see how..
todae went see schedule w jerry lols..
hmm see his face can faint..
anw tml workin le..
and plannin t tell kumaran abt my work..
hmm hope he can help me t book once after i get my results
if not bookin sure full..
i not like jerry who have chandra help.. lols.
biased man..
anw haha was so sian this few days..
and chinese new yr comin..
cannot celebrate also.. but nvm la..
valentines too..
hais. anw gg 0ut this 19th jan w lj serena they all..
so called a farewell day w mf..
gg back china le.. but comin back la..
hmm sian everyone gg back china lols.
but xiao auntie and uncle n qianqian n susu not gg back can alr.
hope can go susu hse view haha..
lols so cool stay w bf leh.. omg! so sweet..
hmm just hope everythin goes rite for me..
wish although it doesnt.. but hmm hope miracle or a change in life..
hmm..
this few weeks dint get t go work chat w them..
chenchen n susu they all gg this sat.. aiis cannot meet also.. cos i gave out sat work..hmm wont be gg st again till nxt month..
i sure miss alot and alot..
and i sure be feelin terrible not gg..
hais i miss
#)arc
1)Pam
2)Von
3)LiJuan
4)MeiFang
5)Serena
6)YiLing
7)June
8)Basha
10)010
9)Jet
10)YongLin
11)BaiDe
12)MehMeh
13)An
14)Mus
15)Laren
16)Fiq
17)Auntie
18)Smckf
19)LiuShuang
20)SuSu
21)QianQian
22)Nga
23)Anna
24)Nick
25)Simon
26)Sam
27)Benjamin
28)ChenChen
29)YangNan
30)ah yang( he in vietnam)
still got lots cannot name all out..
anw im still NUMBER 2!
and always loving 02=]
alrite ppl take care dono when i will blog again.. but do keep taggin me!
MISS me!! nv forget t rmb me!
lovees..:D

mood:wondering:/

to mf..26dec really is a bad day.
i just got t noe everythin and it really sux.

2007-12-28T07:58:00.000-08:00

hihi ppl
im BACK!(:
hmm its been long..
and MERRY CHRISTMAS.!
hmm.. this christmas is kinda borin t me..
dint go out w z'clique cos they went out on 24th.. i was workin then..
dint go out w 5/3, nobody ask..
but i got lots of presents!:D
hmm on 24th i work till 12am w samantha..
and thanks for accompanyin!
25th went out w yangnan, peter, hejia, likai, liushuang, lili, yangchao.
in the afternoon we met at vivo.
went sentosa.
it was damn bored.
cos yn bought his fren there.
and they were like talkin non stop.
peter oni cared in takin photos for his gf.
then me and lili have nth much t do.
lili was angry w yn and others.
in the nite met ls and yc.
lili told everythin t ls.. wow she was like scoldin the guys..
and in the steamboat part was superly funny lols.
haha.. anw steamboat was not bad:)
hmm yn prepared sauce for me cos i dono how.
but i don dare t eat=P
thanks anw.
hmm had quite alot chats..
then go back lols..
26th went work at 6pm..
kumaran gave me a box of chocolates! yeah love him! haha..
he my manager.
met lj and mf in the mornin t have breakfast.
lj gave me a tortise speaker! thanks i love it!
met pam in afternoon t pass her presents.
pam came t visit me and kumaran in the evening.
sry girl i wasn able t acc u!
but love u! and thanks for the presents..
hmm tat nite suppose t meet yn at 11pm.
he wasn able t make it.cos he played bball and just got home at 11pm.=.=
so ass..
but nvm hmm called him..
then walk t mrt alr.. but went back again cos he said he had smth t give me in his locker,
went t his locker.
got great effort t unlock it.
haha lols now i get t share locker w him le..
hmm can put my hp all that if not ls keep scoldin me say cannot put valuables at the office,,
and he gave me a bell shape ferero roccher..its big.
hmm sweet! thanks!(:
hmm wonder how his first day todae..
he hor cannot make it.
dono got hp for wad.
but think he slept alr la. nvm ba..
hmm dono sunday still goin as plan..
im confused! someone pls guide me!
im in need of help and advices..
hais.
aiya anyway its also not confrim.
hmm shall see ba.
hmm tml need go amk w mum..
she got new shop there..
oh! anw my mum having her bday on 31st.
and im still lack of ideas wad t buy!
someone help me on this?
chenchen said buy gucci perfume..
diao.. i no money.. hmm then he say then buy cake lols.
hais got say like nv say lols..=.=
lj say go action city buy upapa!
massager lai de..
hmm should i?
i think i will go t have a look..
maybe sunday goin..
who have the time t acc me go??
hmm pls tell me..
oh ya.. i wanna update on 27th..
ytd i almost cried out.
lols alot ppl bullied me.!
at cocktail i was being asked t do so much stuffs. and have t run here run there
when my table got ppl alr. nobody help me serve and i had t go in t serve then come out do cocktail again!
arghh, then had t prepare for presentation..
b4 that jerry's table got ppl ask for baby chair..
then when i took there the person scolded me say wad i alr told ur 3time the chair is wet..
lols then jerry came w a dry one..
i was like huh.. i also dono rite.. not my table also=.=
anw after presentation..
went t my table. they self service tats better..
then i was asked t refill the tea all tat..lols i one person do 3 person job lols.
how can de..
then when i collectin i found i had no place t put my things.. cause they put theirs alr..
lols then like everythin i had t clear everythin i had t refill..
all im doin lols..
then jerry table got three uncle ask for drinks they talk in a v unreasonable way lols
i was so mad..=.=
hmm i help gerad jerry xingxiu and lisu table and my table..
lols i dono how t do sia..
almost cried man..
and the worse when i alr feel bad.
one guest asked for a beer..
when the function ending.. cos its alr dessert..
i went back t take..have t wait a while cos everythings clear,,
took it t the guest..
and guess wad he said..
"oh i was just joking"
wth..
then he went out w his wife..
took champane t drink..
omg! im boiling lols..
arghh irritated la..angry la..
tats the day i almost cried lols.hais..
in the nite wanted t call someone..
i called lj and yn..
none of them answered my call..
but at least todae i call lj she answered,,'talk t mf..
hmm sister don sad. must jiayou! everythin would change for better..
but called yn or msg, he dint reply..
guess he slept la. tml maybe he workin lols..
if he don wan call or reply back he so doom man..
sunday i don wann meet him alr la..
he so ass lols.
hais..
hmm maybe sunday ask lj or ml out t buy mum's present..
or cake at most..
alrite la i guess i updated alot alr..
hmm sch holidays ending! hope all ppl goin t sch reopen have a good last holiday![:
hmm dono still havin class chalet anot..
pls anyone update me can?
hmm lookin forward t chalet meetin 5/3 peeps!
i miss u all man!
esp my basha haha..=X
hmm ok shall end here.. maybe update when i have time,,
nxt week super lots of time cos i dint get t book and nxt week i will be havin holidays man..
hmm anw poly and jc sch reopening..
tat means lisu chenchen they all will be comin seldom alr..
hmm sad. but its ok shall keep in contact..![:
alrite la peeps have a good nite slp..
and good day t everyone in everyday!(:

2007-12-16T05:10:00.000-08:00

hihi
wow siao super long dint update alr..
haha lazy + always workin..
haha anw hmm got super lots of things happened.
hmm not bad la but okok de..
anw i finally got t serve one table.
and alr my third time.. haha
quite cool eh..
not tat frightened alr haha
quite fast too.. can catch up can alr haha..
but hor first 2 times i serve weird tables.
first time is just rite beside vip.no 2 :D
chenchen got no 1. but he hor.
cannot kao him one.
he v lazy lols. cannot make it.nv really help me.
i do till his table also need t help him serve drinks.=.=
but anw the table i got all ahma ahgong so like need alot of respect lols..
second time i got was a little better..
they like self service.
but then the ppl got drunk and was like hell man..=.=
the uncle and auntie was quarrelin and started shoutin vulgarities. and smoke there..
dennis then went t stop.
and so sway its my table. lols 3 bottles of wine who wont drunk man..
and the uncle vomited.
sarks man. so gross..:/
but third time dinner and dance was the best of these three times.
cos i alr got use and i can serve at normal timing..
and don have t care wad also haha..=X
anw made super lots of frens there..
alot same as me 17yrs old de..
and hmm there de ppl really not tat bad..
and some are just great..(:
anw got bad news t share..
actually not bad la. cos its a happy news.
xiao uncle got selected in a company alr.
he just need t wait for his certificate t be mail here then he can start work..
hmm i ask him den we will get t contact anot..
he says got phone ma haax.
he told me abt his pay and company lols.
hmm congrats him..
but hmm will seldom meet him le.
anw just now xiao gugu and peter at his hse.
lols wow lau not fair go his hse nv call me..=.=
haha lols anw they shld be workin tml ba.
shall look forward t see them tml..
oh ya
ppl i will be gg genting w my whole lots of family/relatives.
from 20th t 23 thurs till sunday then be back..
anw i wish i can meet xiao uncle out on sunday.
but hmm as a farewell ba.
guess xiao gugu they all will have plans also..
i wann go eat huoguo w xiao uncle.
hope soon!(:
anw yeah started work and yupps have adapted.
as the ppl there are out gg..
haha anw was v talkative there la.
dono one talk abit become good frens le..
haha.. they talk i also talk..
so haha not bad talkative isnt bad things haha..
ok la nowadays superly happy..
cos got workin frens t chat w..
but sometimes got annoyed by chen chen..
suddenly change de.
but sometimes still ok.. haha
but i still love my xiao gugu and xiao uncle.
some ppl there may look fierce like saifu.but he actually v good haha
and some ppl are just "irritating"=X haha jk de. like kokweng.
like t make funn of my tea lols.. haha..
lols. hmm but i miss others too!
anw i saw the prom nite pic.
and it was so cool man!
BASHA u were great w auntie.
haha and farhan mehmeh..
wow lols so COOL hmm..
but hope ur enjoyed urself.
sorry i wasnt there..
but shall meet up soon! CHALET alrite ppl!

yupps things are not meant t be wont b force t be.
anw i got used and tats how i will wan t live on.
i don understand my emotions
but somehow they don disappoint me.
no matter how far i can be.
i will get used and adapt..

christmas coming! anw i will not be workin on tat day!
who wann go out?
faster book me out?
haha v bhb =X
anw i just wish t celebrate w my frens and no other wishes..
hmm lalalas if late t book then too bad so sad.
but if nope then i will stay at home t slp haha=X
cos 26 will be workin ma lols :/
hais earn money cannot spend lols.
sad. no time go out spend.
lols anw those who still owe me meals ar..
don forget hor haha=X
hmm ok. tat all for this post..
v long le. can consider i blog everyday le haha(:

mood: se bu de:/ average

2007-12-09T05:31:00.000-08:00

hihi
hmm yeah todae nv go work lols.
haha cool.
anw tml also cause lazy go ma haha..
gg ah ma hse also..
hmm tues got t go work w meilin le.
and her frens ..
hais.
but nvm chenchen and xiao uncle gg there on tues also!
yeah likes.
hmm suan le la.
chenchen can forget it le. made me so angry lols.
aeroplane guy=.=
nvm. look forward meetin xiao uncle lols.
hmm sians i dono is sad or not sad?
i forget wad i wan t blog alr..
nvm nxt time got jihui den blog lols.
bb..

mood:confused:/

2007-12-05T05:10:00.000-08:00

hihi
hmm todae ended off earli..
but being told off by joel and dennis. cos cannot go back at 6pm de
anw i tot can cos tat time got alot of ppl went off but not now.
guess just input the new rules.
lols wth.
hmm anw it will be the last warning for all the staffs i guess..
anw kinda regret gg home earli. cos chenchen came.
but alrite la.
talk t him when he came. kinda shocked him,
haven had dinner de him nearly pulled me down for dinner too.
but too bad i gg back at six.
anw since its the last time can so tat means from tml onwards i need do till 11pm everyday.
i will start at 12pm everyday lols.
hmm ok la anw the job is kinda slackin.
but slack till too bored liao le lols. omg.
hmm thurs dono who workin also scare ltr sians.
i think the twins gg. redzuan also gg lols.
anw redzuan was the guy i been tryin t rmb the name.
cos he look abit like afiq lols.
i tot they brothers, asked him but ans is nope haha.=X
stupid gal me. lols.
hmm job was kinda alrite la.
except tat the ppl there don really mixed arnd de lols.
anw b4 gg back. the twins told me tat joel was gg t give me a table todae.
lols hmm no thanks yet.
one person work is so tough lols.
i still enjoy being attach t ppl.
haha lols. best is work w ppl like chenchen anna and others ba.
haha those will talk abit more de=]
anw todae was kinda not a great day.
lols but cc made my day=]
and i got cc number lols. haax no use also.
gettin more other ppl number then:D
gett t noe more frens!
lols oh ya got one guy dono his name.
treat me like an idiot.
lols ask me do this then he nv teach but its alr completed.
ask me hold this then he went away.
wth arghh so angry can..
dono wad he thinkin also..
sot de lols..hmm nvm i do my part can alr. lols.

hmm get t noe from pam and afiq tat prom was great.
hmm not bad uhh..
din regret not gg but hmm still don wish t miss out all the funn..
anw now all frens workin and me also..
i think i drifted v apart from one side of the fren.
hmm nvm who.
maybe its like even if i contact or wad
i tot it maybe a good contact t them
but wad i get was sian?
hmm nvm lols. nth much t say also.
i also cant do anythin.
now i also don go for dinner so maybe loneliness does not occurs.
hmm but its still gd t have someone t talk when workin.
all newcomers all came in w a fren.
and they chatted like nobody business lols.
but hardly get t talk lols.
hmm nvm lols suan le.
must go mix inner more w them..
but kinda hard arh if u noe my workin conditions..
lols.but a smile is good alr(:

he dint reply
wad does he want
i been talkin t myself.
if he reply i cont
if he doesn then i shall let go
the moment i say he reply.
but ltr no more reply.
wad is this la.
aiiya i dono la.

hmm todae dinner end at 11pm again lols.
hmm the bear wad cute lols.
wish can take back but not enuff so sad man,,
hmm anw dono tml will be attach anot,
hope not a table t myself can alr. lols:D

mood: okay(:

2007-12-03T02:47:00.001-08:00

hihi
yeah third day of work le..
todae off haha too tired le.Opps=X
haax anw its was funn..
on the first day got t be attach t kavitha.
anw she was good(:
got t know a twins. name cheryln and dono alr. srys/
also got t open a door w chin jie.but hmm dint talk much.
[there was dancing]
got t serve one of the dish and it was funn..
second day was kinda bored cos nth much.
was ask t wipe dishes..
lols.sian man, but was chattin haha.
w a lady who look so young but has 4kids.
do u believe it?
another was farid.
poly guy.rp i suppose. anw it was kinda nice.
[there guitar playing]
third day was superly funn.
knew a new fren called francine and a vietnam girl forget ask her name.and durrani. i guess his name is spelled correctly.
got attach t a china guy.
CHENCHEN.
his name so cute rite haha.
anw he kept sayin "mei shi,wo lai zuo jiu ke yi le."
lols haha mei shi here mei shi there.
he even pour drinks ask me faster go have a break.
gave me the gifts extras on the table.
taught me alot of things.
the table we serve.. he become so shou huan ying lols haha:D
anw it was so funn and cool attach t him haha!:D
but he also poly. 20yrs old.
[nice videos n military style COOL]
dono when comin work again le..hmm nvm will meet de.
but dono when.
shall wait after 2 weeks when poly holiday starts yeah funn days!:D
shall see him soon!:D (i guess?)

[30nov07]
i msg him.
yupps he replied.
we chat alittle. but he ended off.
nah anw he workin and i headin t work also..
hmm but still happy he replied.
[3dec07]
prom nite todae.
he gg lols. he told me.
but hmm too bad i tat time last min cancel it.
but anw its just a nite.
so i guess i can change nth?
hmm shall let nature take its course ba.
if im able t wait i shall..
but just like my vietnam work mate said.
if its impossible.even she also wont wait. but if theres hope.
maybe and maybe u should wait.
am i waitin for a person t tell me whether i shld wait?
or am i headin my own directions?

hmm tough days coming again.
tml i will be workin again lols haha
anw work was funn but hate dinner.
both the food and loneliness sux,
the food. hmm lets just say im not interested cos its not nice.
and i have hardly able t secure anyone t have dinner w me.
cos not everytim the ppl i usually dine w came.
theres a bigg click of china ppl, malay ppl, chinese(long time worker)mostly guys.
and a pathetic grp of new comers and indian ppl.
lols however its like not really familiar there so have t make more frens as possible.
now alr consider not too bad le. haha=X
at least i din expected any guy/girl work mates t ask if im workin tml haha=]
yupps elated(:
anw like my workin environment except tat its tiring.
hmm but anw its ok la.
hope those i like more come work more haha(:
hope everyday will be a funn day then(:
tml workin from 12pm t 11pm.COOL.
see ya. update on sundae. another off haha.=X

2007-11-28T05:57:00.000-08:00

hihi
back on post!
so long nv blog. something happened.
was superly sad.
my father side grannie just passed away.
family went for funeral for 5days. and stayed there..
was sad. was shock.
unexpected but hais.
maybe its gd for her.
end her pain of gg thr the medication.
hope she lives well up there.
i will put her in my <3 just like i put my grandfathers..
anw i just wish someone was there t lend me a shoulder.
but there was none.
but i was happy t get t be closer t all my cousins!:D
hais.
now sister girlgirl both found their love.
and more comin up. hmm..
left me? hais..

went out w von pam ytd. went sheraton. but too late le. went eat sakae haha=X met desmond fahdli and a guy. but dint eat tog.haax.
went newton w yonglin nico yonghui.
interview at sheraton.start work on friday.
srys let ur wait for so long. apologetic.

i miss u!
miss u.
but hais i noe if u got wad i gave u now.
u will ignore me for the rest of my life.
im afraid.
u dint give any replies.
im afraid.
u will ignore me.
im afraid.
to even msg u.
wad shld i do really?
fren once asked.
is it worth waitin?
he wait so i shld wait too?
will he even care?
why not give other chance when there is?
why i cant let go?
i miss him. really.
i wanna see him. i wanna hear his voice.
but i noe it wont be realistic for me.
im helpless..
so wad even got help.
he wont care?
stupid monkey.
makin my life miserable.
starmoncrapkeyfish.
i miss ur chats.
entertainer.
i miss our laughs.
i just like long leg u!
can u at least reply?? pls.
~~csr.~~

mood:average:/

2007-11-21T06:30:00.000-08:00

hihi
hmm went out w june todae.
went town walk walk.
went t see the game plan.
well its was so COOL!
and i nearly cried.
cos its so touchin in the end,
anw went isetan bought a nice tubetop at mango.
omg! tat super ex. but its nice..
anw maybe gg work le! i so happy!
hope it doesn go bad on me.
hais.cant wait t start work man!
anw saw laren.
sellin toys haha he went t dye his hair.
hmm don look nice on him but hmm long time no see le.
but nth t tok hais.
anw BASHA msg me! i super happy.
mus meh an june called me. i so so happy!
so many ppl Rmb me! i love them!
wow if we can meet up tat will be even better! but
everyone is so busy w their work. so sad.
hais im not workin though
but im rotting at home
tats super sian de lols. hais. who can understand my pain...
haax craps man..
anw chatted w xiuqi.
nv tot i got the courage t tok t her.
but was happy t tok. hmm
really miss each and everyone of them!!
5N3,z', 2006 batch,juniors,family!

hmm..
imh
dono why.
everythin i do like related t him..
so fan nao.
omg. hmm i wish i can return
every pieces of memories t him..
but i just cant.
dono why.
hais lets nature take its place ba...

mood: average. [headache]
imh.
i wish find job! go out/play! nv rot at home!=.=

2007-11-17T05:57:00.000-08:00

hihi
had great day w jess eleanor.!
finally an outing which we doesnt feel boreD.
lols. anw jess goin hk and zhuhai tml!
have a safe and wonderful trip!:D

i been wondering am i pathetic?
`failure. i noe in wad can alr.
`even a dinner, my mum scolded me for being lazy go buy. so diff t even help me buy?
`not being treated fairly, both in family n frens?
`i wanted ppl t console me. i called yet i dint say wad is it abt and hung up.
`i couldnt even find a job. when everybody does.
`he dint even reply.
`i wanted t tell fren t tell him,don throw away before he even reads it.
isnt it the most pathetic scene.
having t give and ask not t throw?
if u get wad i mean u will feel.
anw who cares lols.
i been thinkin do i deserve all this pain?
maybe i do.
am i desperate? no i don.
am i pathetic? yes maybe i do.
am i nuts? yes abt u i guess.
am i a loner? yes t a certain extent.
am i stupid? yes whatever i do.
am i extra? yes maybe i always do.
am i in depression? yes/no hmm i also dono.
am i crazy? ppl may think so.
am i emotional? yupps i can say.
am i nobody wans? ya can see.
yupps im pathetic.
cant even find someone t say to.
anw nobody would even wan hear me say all this uh..
i jus wanted him t treat me as a fren.
so t a certain extent i still get t talk t him.
but things isnt gg this way.
he ignores. ya.
i always have t wait and wait for hours for days just for him t reply.
but he dint.
but the last thing i nid t do. i guess i have gave him.
its matter when he gets it.
if he dint reply or ignores.
i shall end everythin.i have given him back all our memories.
maybe word i may say. of cos i wont forget.
but at least i will try t stay away.
i noe. i just hated my life.
i love smiles but i don get t smile everyday.
tears become part of my daily life.
maybe raindrops suits me more.

mood: sad:(

2007-11-07T06:43:00.000-08:00

hihi
ytd 61107 went out w mf lj serena lingz sb mh yh.
hmm went kbox.
dint go w pam n von they all..
i'm so srys.
hmm..but i had funn time w gf they all ba.
thanks.

NITEMAREs.
shall not say much about it.
everythin sucks.

i just wish somebody can be by my side.
now. nobody.
well nvm.

mood: sad:'(
can u pls don ignore me?

2007-10-31T04:40:00.000-07:00

hihi
haha lols hundreds yrs nv update blog le..
kinda lazy go online arh.
cos too tired alr.
anw todae din go study w them.
tml off day!
haha no ppr lols.
but tml gg study! and yk is gg t teach me!
cool! haha.

hmm yupps chem phy practical over.
chem ppr over.
history ppr over.
maths 1/2 ppr over.
english over.
mt over.
still left w physics ss dnt and phy/chem ppr 1
lols.hmm JIAYOU! last lap really is left w a few ppr oni.

anw just thinkin just now.
who will i meet?
i like scare t meet new frens.
maybe i unwilling t let go of my old frens?
will my new frens be as great as my old ones?
hmm but will i even get t poly?
nvm anw i can say i did my part in os?
just hope everythin is worth.:D

starmoncrapkeyfish.
stupid star.stupid monkey.
ignorin my msges.
lols maybe basha really said rite.
he felt guilty tats why he replied.
i dono.
i felt so bad.
maybe he doesnt noe.
maybe he knew.
i just noe he bother.but frens.
wad can i say?
last yr.
first time.
hais. i dono.words cant express my terrible feelings.
should i?
i really afraid of the times being _ but.hmm last yr?
if i really say can i still able t face him when we come back take results?
is it hard?
i dono la. hais.tml he got poa ppr. plannin t wish.
i wished him everyday. even if i don have any ppr.
lols.hais. he sian me fan anot?
smckf! give me reply pls.
in sch see u u also see le turn away.
i dreamt of him.
everythin was the same. he ignored me.
lols who say dreams are opposite from real life and why is it not for me?
can he at least give me a chance?
i seemed desperate.omg! i'm not la.
hais dono wad happen btwn us.
is it u or is it me?

anw just too much things happened.
and seriously i don feel gd.
maybe not by expression.
but inside me i really don..
hmm maybe tats me from the start.

mood:average:/
inu.

2007-10-21T06:29:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm todae went study w jangyong yiping baide
billy came in the afternoon.
lols baide and billy came like 3 then go like 5?
play bball ba.lols
anw it was so funny
b wann go toilet.
he dono go wher when the toilet is just behind us.
lols.we all tot he went t causeway point haha..
but he went second floor dono ulu ulu toilet haha.
we all laugh till stomach pain.
hmm anw it kinda nice la.fruitful i mean.

well yupps guess i found one who noes how i felt.
pain. is wad i noe.
hais.but don wish ppl t ever noe liao.
cos i wann put an end t this.
if this time same results. i wont wan t sad abt it le la.
yes, i dono maybe wad i noe now is just wad he doesnt wan t noe.
but hmm wad can i do.
i can do nth but t bluff u
the oni way for u t tok t me again.
hais i really dono wad should i do.

o's super near us alr!
its on wed!!! omg! i'm abit freak liao..
hais i'm worried la.
scare is wad i'm feelin.
hmm...
just do ur best!!!
this time will u wish me on every paper?
or u bother t reply me just once more?

maybe it has ended.
maybe it has not.
i dono.
but i just wish us t be like 2mnths ago.
entertainers.
i.m.u

mood:average:/ (headache)

2007-10-20T07:03:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm just had practical on thurs.
anw good or bad.
its over.
anw just noe did ur best alr and tats fine.:D

yeah i'm happy!
happy!
but like i told s.a.b
good things wont last..
i really afraid.
history always repeated on me.
will it happen again?
will its crash like last time?

yupps lingz say de you dao li.
hold on when u feel like lettin go.
things are unpredictable.
just let god decide the rest.
yes i agree..but i just curious.
will god take away wad i needed?
will god decide wad i don wan.?

yupps i'm afraid
afraid t lose everythin.
ppl arnd me.
ppl i nid
ppl i care
ppl i like
hais. dono just had chat w pz
she doin fine in poly.
well i wanna and lookin forward t nyp
but afraid cos i'm new.

who will i meet?
will it be great?
will i be missed?

yeah its just a matter of time.lets just get on w life.
everytime wad been said had not been done.
i just don understand
how did i became so ever invisible?
is the fault w me?
odd numbers. its just extra.

yeah tml gg study w jy and yp i guess..
hmm hope it would be fruitful.:D
jiayou! girl yeah i can do it!
9pts. maybe 12pts! MUST! JIAYOU!

mood: average:/ (headache)

2007-10-18T05:15:00.000-07:00

hi ppl
well todae practical was alrite.
hmm dono correct anot but hmm well its over
wad can i do if i'm wrong?
hmm stay positive and everythin will be alrite :D
anw just happy.
dint tot u will reply.
but thanks.
i'm motivated.
thanks for replyin.thanks for saying gd luck:D

anw first time went eat long john with an meh and maii.
haax cool man!
anw went ahma hse after tat.
hais see my ahma so kelian.
she so xin ku.
hais. my father, i can feel his pain.
he is worried.he scares.
hais.

tml nid go sch as usual.
sian.but anw got lesson.and nxt week o's la.
omg i'm scared!
hais. but yeah i gotten my motivation.
and i just hopin u to be back.
but it of cause wont affect my studies la
so ppl must JIAYOU lots alrite!!!

girl i noe u can do it! yes i sure can.
must cont nv give up last min..
LETs PING!:D

mood: happy:)

2007-10-16T05:09:00.000-07:00

hihi
yo ppl so long nv online update le.
haha too busy.
hmm anw so stress can..omg
but nvm shall work hard now rather than regret rite
my sch principal/teachers/students always like t say.
so hmm yeah its true la anw.

anw o's practical this thurs.
omg! its so fast.too fast indeed.
omg! how?
and nxt week is official o's
omg! i'm scare la.
but i'm improving.
but guess its too late?
i started too late.
just hope everythin goes well.
and i hope i will do well..
and i will try.
JIAYOU.
will u wish me?

anw super lots of things happened.
hais don wish t say. don wish t recap
its all so sux la.
but hmm anw just focus of o's is the most impt.

anw yeah i got private tutor,
miss chua.
wow she's great! love her so many.
thanks teacher.! i wont let u down for sci i hope.

would u be there?
would u be back?
can we be like last time?
would u turn back?
i always tot.
but it nv happens.
nth goes as i wish.
well i seriously wish,
my entertainer will be back...

alrite ppl JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!:D
i also shall BUCK UP!

mood: happy:)
[except for the part when tangtang ask me don do silly things.
but i understand. i will work v hard de. t.t u too! JIAYOU]

2007-10-08T07:11:00.000-07:00

hihi
YO people:D back from such a long time.and after this will be gone again for another long time.
hmm but nvm can enjoy all i wan after tat!
yes O's comin man.omg! superly stress..
hais cant catch up w work.
how am i gg t cope?
i cant.
omg! hmm.but nvm shall JIAYOU ba.
i believe hard work pays off.
and yeah lets all put in the effort and say I CAN DO IT!

haax.hmm sians nowadays too much things happened
fcuk!
hais i'm just stress up.
and u don seems t care.
i'm hurt.by whoever is hurtin me.
u seems t enjoy it.
i'm hurt alrite.[dratsab]
aiya wadever.
since everyone noes.i will say
i like u alrite.u happy!

hmm too stress alr haha.
anw hmm i feel tat all my sub gg down man!
faint*
hais lackin of motivation.
ever since u went off.
i kept failin my maths.
but i will try t do w/o u!
and startin from now.

alrite le.nth t blog le.byebye=]
oh ya.
I'm super duper HAPPY.
ah xin msg me! omG! sweet!!:D

and.
thanks 010 for the present.:D

mood: average :/

2007-09-28T20:33:00.000-07:00

hihi
[27/09/07]
lols forget bring pe.
knn de the Ppl.
Lols eh, it not the end of the world we dint bring pe.
we just forget.
and its true we forgotten.
u all rather listen t fake than real rite.
like tat everyone will be liars alr.
lols wth is this.all this link t our conduct?
am i the most bad one?
lols.pls la don link everyone tog can.
its super unfair can.don be so sacarstic t us.
and don assume ur always will be the rite one.
fcuk.

[28/09/07]
rainy day.
lols we oni dint wait.
do u always have t be so petty?
yes its our fault.
i noe this would be alrite soon.
but why always have t qian jiu one?
its so damn stupid can.
wth.
happy t chat w 010.

[29/09/07]
sec bro fainted ytd.
injuries all over his head.
omg so heart breakin.hope he will recover quickly.
gg chinese garden ltr w june.
hope it would be a funn trip then[:

super upset by wads happenin arnd me.
i just dono wads wrong la.
i get so upset,jealous.
became so petty.
sucks man.

everythin is solved.
i knew everythin.
but i just cant believe wad i heard.
i just cant believe the true.
from the first t the last.
i been fooled?
am i?
from the first t the last
everyone knew wad gg on btwn us?
i been hidden?
i always tot u really are the gd person.
i tot i get hurt u too got hurt.
but wad is happenin now?
am i dreamin? or am i losin my mind of u?
is this the way u planned?
or is this the trap i fell into?
all this happened just for the sake of showin off?
just for the sake of catchin up?
just for the sake of followin?
wad the hell u think i must have been?
how the hell u think i will feel?
why u just cant understand.
i always tot tat there will be a little side of u tat wanted back this frenship.
yet maybe,i was wrong.
everythin started,becos u just wanted t follow.
yupps this is the trend u been followin.
entertainer.
poff.gone.vanished into tiny air.

i'm distracted.
mood:sad:(

2007-09-26T05:30:00.000-07:00

hihi
todae went out w june baide yp.
hmm alrite la.went bugis.
actually wanna study.but shop till don wan study le.
bought alot of things.bought shoe bag too!
haax.=X
look forward t sat chinese garden.
who interested t go w us??
tired.

[24/09/07]
Happy birthday t me.:D
anw thanks V BIGG t all those ppl who wished me,celebrated w me.
as well as givin me lovely presents.[:

[25/09/07]
Happy Birthday t YongHui.
yeah sch end earli.
but nid t go back sch at 6pm for nite study.
went have lunch w the grp:D
bought super many candles.yeah! haha.
went mount yishun in the nite,:D
thanks henry papa drive me home:D

u nv noe wad is it like t lose a fren
until u taste it.
nobody is right nor wrong
why cant just learn t accept.
everythin would be better..

u wished me.
if u really wan me t have a great day.
mean it.
yes i may not be great
but wads wrong w me
its disappointin uh.
the one u wish is not her.

I shall JIAYOU! hope this individual chem teacher for us would be great!
i wish t pass sci la!:D*ke wang
i must JIAYOU! study hard YOo!

crying season.
mood:average:/

2007-09-23T06:41:00.000-07:00

hihi
[22/09/07]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY eleanor!
went out w gf sister serena lingz yh mh ning.
t s'pore river! omg! n i got t see my FULLERTON hotel! super happy!:D
anw thanks to Zcliques for my beloved presents. i LOVE everythin alrite:D

[23/09/07]
send coach song off.bye.bon voyage!:D
went tpy w jq leon jess jc km eleanor.
play 02jam at lan shop.
waste time cos bugis 2pm then open.
anw 02 jam is super cool! i wanna download but cant find.:(
anw bought bag and other stuffs.was superly great!
but tirinG! anw lovess:D

its sad for being treated invisibily.
history always repeat itself even its diff ppl who acted.
but somehow it always appear on the same person.
somehow i just wann t get out of everythin.

frens comes not becos they pity.
u don get frens out of sympathy.
gettin true frens would be when u also give them ur full heart.

nv assume on anythin.
its hard t explain wad are frens.
but its easy t get along once u noe them.

i dono wad i heard is true anot?
should i choose t believe or should i choose not t believe?
is it true?
is it not true?
why do u have t do this if its a yes?
are u really change for the better if its a no?
attitude is everythin.yet u don have any.
"shuian yao"so impt?
"mian zi"so impt?
i missed it.
i hate it.
if u leave me.
but i do do feel.i miss u much.
im lost.

mood:average:/

2007-09-21T07:05:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm ....

i rmbered once last year. she was sad.cried in class n i rushed over.
just t consoled her and be by her side.
after tat. she just said a bye n happily went off w others.
hey. i'm so invisible?
yet same thing happened again.
yes same and it was just exactly wad it had happened last time.
suan le.anyway things change rite.i just dono.
wad is it tat u said are here givin out in life.
yes everythin is just so unreal.hais.

when ur gone.
pieces of my heart are missing u.
all i wan u to noe.
everythin i do i put my heart n soul.
words i nid t hear will always get me thr.
imu.

[prelims]
english: D7
maths: F9
science:F9
humanities:C5
mother tongue:C6
dnt:B4/C5
L1B4=35
L1R5=41
OMG.>.<

wow nite study superly power lols.yeah this the third day.
omg! eyes alr so swollen liao le.so tired can omg!
hmm yeah pass eleanor present.although her bd tml.
scare i not free..hope she likes it.=]
anw in the mornin smth bad happen.my "uncle" should noe ba.
aiya why everythin has t turn out t be so ~~bastard~~.
wth. i dono wad is it tat is so wrong abt me.
why have t do thing until like tat.
u think i enjoy it.NO i don! its all so ~~shit~~ can.wth.
hais suan le.since i'm so invisible t everyone so be it alrite.

but i shall cont t work hard.LOLs failin prelim is not the end of the world.
learn t accept tat u fail.and learn from ur mistake
feel the sadness.ltr let it go.
and it should not affect ur mood t study! yeah tat the attitude!
shall work hard! JIAYOU!:D
i shall JIAYOU JIAYOU! JIAYOU girl!:D
byebye.

mood: devastated :'(

2007-09-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

hihi
[15/9/07]
hmm ytd had a great day w pam n von..
although in the nite it wasnt great but..hmm yeah had funn
haha!
hmm todae went cp w mum cos she sick..then went t buy new hp
yeah! T650i..LOLS.hmm..
tats all ba.byebye.

ni huai nian ma?
ni hai ji de wo men de liao tian ma?
ni huai nian wo men de din zui ma?
ni bu shi hao ren ma?
wei se me xian zai zhuo le huai ren..
ni yao wo hen ni hai shi wang le ni..
ni yao wo xi huan ni hai shi tao yan ni..
ni dao di yao wo zhuo se me?
wo zhen de hen xing ku.ye hen tong ku.
wo bu zhi dao yao ze me zhuo..
starmoncrapkeyfish.u'r no longer my smiling face..
wo zi xi wang ni nen hui tou kan.
xi wang yi qe tou nen hui qu yi qian..
wo xi wang...

2007-09-14T06:41:00.000-07:00

hihi
yeah! finally last paper FOR prelim..
but hmm i dint do well..sad.
but nvm! i still got O's! must JIAYOU alr!!!
had funn eatin w von at LJS.even though we dint managed t eat nasi brani.
hmm chat abt 7pm show lols haha=X
anw todae one super NICE! omg! how i wish i'm zishan.but tat not possible de
i so bu yao lian..ppl so pretty and elegant.LOLs..cant compare de.
hmm..but so sweet can omg!
[herman + zishan]*

b*:i dono why are we not tokin la.its alr been so long maybe hais i dono..
s*:i dono wad happen t me.wads wrong w u.i just wanna stop here..
p*:i dono wad t say.
v*:i dono wad am i thinkin also...cannot make it.

like i always noe..
fantasy is oni a part of one's beautiful dream.
yet in real life things arent so great as it think to be..
we just need t face reality sometime.
and why not earli rather than later..
at least it wont be so devastatin...
my fairytale...is just part of my imagination...

JIAYOU GIRL! i noe i can do it! so can aLL!
jiayou jiayou! gambate.:D

mood: average :/

2007-09-13T05:09:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm todae went study w von pam..
LOLs brain kinda saturated..so dint managed t study much..
I'M so sry!! to von..
omg! hmm..anw tml shall be a happy happy day for me!
last ppr alr! somemore von suggested we go eat nasi brani after tat!
omg! i super happy lols! LOOK forward t tml!! haha
anw last ppr le..meant we gettin back results soon! omg! i'm so afraid!
superly can..hais..i don think my results would be any better la..
but just hope for the better..
hmm anw hope tml will be a good day!

lalalas super sian..ED..lols..hmm..
JIAYOU![: girl can do it de!:D

mood: :)

2007-09-12T06:50:00.001-07:00

srys ppl..cos i still find him super shuai!

hihi
hmm got maths ppr2 todae.omG! sux can..hais..
head burst liao le..gg t lan diao..
pls! its superly stressin me out..hais.
but nvm! shall have the nv endin motivation! must keep me gg till o's ba..
hmm anw..tml no sch! no ppr..but hmm gg study at cc study rm lols..
maybe 10am? yue zhao yue hao..can study more..
guess will be alone ba if von not comin..nvm hmm..

guess tat everythin alrite.and happy for ur...:D
was thinkin tat why am i so ever lonely?
hais i dono la.maybe i just cant find the rite thing t do..
hais i just dono wad t do..i really at lost!

anw was happy! just made my ahma happy in the afternoon..
felt so gd..but somethin happen in the nite..hmm dono la..
anw hmm hope everythin will be alrite as time goes..

" hais wo hai shi fang bu xia la.. i dono why la..
but wo ye bu xiang fang xia..
its tat i don wan t be so ever lonely.
somemore bringin happiness into my life is so ever kun nan can..
wo bu zhi dao yao ze me zhuo..
wo ye bu zhi dao yao ze me ban..
but everytime i go study..wo hui hen xiang gen ni qu..
although i noe nw is not possible le..
but hmm nvm ba.i will fang xia de eventually..
cos i still have my friends..esp von + pam..
thanks man..but.nahs shall not say anymore."

Jia YOU ba.! I can do it de! so can all the peeps.!!
lets all mugg for O's BA!!!:D
*FOCUS! jiayou girl!!!

mood: :)

2007-09-09T06:48:00.000-07:00

todae high sch musical 2!:D

hihi
hmm went study w von..
lols ltr baide n johnathan went too..
anw they come alr then we went out study w them..
so qiao the uncle went in t check..
haha..SO LUCKY lols..
like mr yeo said " not everyday is ur lucky day"
but luckily we went out alr..=]
then went out ask baide explain question..lols anw i noe alr..i guess..
haha thanks anw..
hmm dint really study after go out..
von play w baide..cos snatch hp>.<
then me n johnathan watch [fu man ren jian]
omg!! super nice OLDLY show!!!
went pop buy things.went eat.go home.
todae is [ong yun kwang] birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!:D

super elated :D
happy :)
average :/
not too bad :/
sad :(
devastated :'(
my emotions..=]]

like i always say...
diff ppl have diff placing in each heart..not onli mine but to all
so diff ppl made diff impact on the same person..
its diff anw so cannot just use one perspective t view as u nv will be correct..
initiative comes from 1..
i dono wad can i still do..

mood: happy :)

2007-09-08T07:20:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm had a fruitful day w von..
study at cc from 1130 till 730..
wow 9hrs.. SUPER!
anw tml gg again! yes nid t go everyday!!!

JIAYOU JIAYOU!! jiayou girl!!
i shall jiayou bah!!!
FOCUS*

hmm i really dono wad happen..
i tried wadever i can..wad t do.
wad ur still wann me t do..
I'M CONFUSED!

lalalas i gonna work hard!!!

mood: not good :/

2007-09-07T08:13:00.001-07:00

yes its him again :)

hihi
hmm went for maths todae..
luckily went.cos learn more things.
hmm my ppr 2 sux la..hais don really noe how t do..
anw sad la..
hmm after tat went eat w pam and jet.
went off fast..went out w serena and lj..
hmm in the nite go occ play pool.dint really play la.=.=
there here am i at home alr..lols 1 day pass so fast >.<
hais i seriously dono wad had happen..
although i'm interested t noe..i wont ask anymore
since no one is willing enuff t say..so no point forcin...
alrite..i shall care no more la..since its not my prob..
should mind my own hse business..
hmm...

hais..FEELNG is super weird can..
my heart is empty..so hollow la..=.=
hmm and no more msgin..nobody msg me..hais..
cant be any sadder..lols
just found out i'm so lonely..durin the bus ride home from cwp..
hais dono la..maybe i really in nid of someone who i can tok freely t..
someone like smckf but i doubt i can find anyone like smckf..
dono la.hmm nv felt so ever lonely can..
when everyone is busy mindin his/her business..
who gives a damn on me..(nobody)

alrite tml nid t study hist alr..and maths perhaps..
hmm gg cc tml..byebye ..

mood: sad :(

2007-09-06T05:58:00.000-07:00

omg i gonna post his pic up everytime.! he too shuai alr!:D

hihi
hmm..sians todae went for english and history..
omg superly saturate-ed haha..
anw after tat as von don wan go watch movie..i went my ahma hse..
hmm actually nv go cos tml nite gg out..
lols go bottle tree w z's!
hmm hope its fruitful ba..=.=
anw hmm so sians can..

hais donno leh felt so damn weird can..
its like hais i also donno wad t say leh..
nv like someone feelin is weird..but at least hmm..
i did it wad..hais maybe time not rite ba..
i don wan be despo lols..oh pls tat sux..

alrite la gg t watch my show.!
anw ppl channel 8 (7pm and 9pm show) is fantastic!
i super like herman and zishan! sweet*
*melts..=X
ok byebye..:D

mood: happy:)

2007-09-05T07:31:00.000-07:00

shadows..[:

me jet youliang

5N3!:D

teachers' day!

mrs lim...me pam von

haha i still think he v shuai!;P

hihi
todae went study w vonn and ning..
lols..hmm had quite a study..
but it did went in brain..
yeah its nice...and hmm i was like so surprise..
i dint think of anythin else..and yes..
i did it..but hope i will nv think of it again..
hmm got smiley for everyone! hope they like it..
i noe von gg t say.."why waste money again..aiiyoooo"
haha..hmm so cute rite..haha..
todae she also scold me..cos i told her abt last christmas..
hmm well its over..so saddin stuffs..
haax..but hmm yeah i love study room!:D
hmm sians tml got history and english..haax.nvm must study..!:)

hmm i donno wad had happen..but from wad i noe..u aint tellin me everythin..
its like why must i always be the one noein everythin at the v last..
i just don understand..i don no anythin..
its like this feelin has numbED me...
maybe now..i just don really feel tat as compared t last time..
cant help me not being concern..i jus donno why..maybe i don have the feel t care
but u always impt in my heart..

must study hard girl!!!!
last lap t O's..omg so scary..hope i can overcome my test anxiety..=.=

its not wrong t noe..maybe its my self tat i don understand..
its the everythin everyone tat i noe..tat adds t my agony..
maybe everythin seems simple..yet who noes..
it might be complicated in the inside..
yes it seems weird..but who bother t even see it..
who bother t even say..who bother t even noe...
wadever..my life is full of shit.........but sometimes..
its full of colours..cos i noe i will always have "ure"
and nv wann wash the colours away..its the fear i scare of ever losin any...
cos all of ure meant lots t me..its the heart tat noes everythin..

mood: happy :)

2007-09-04T08:56:00.000-07:00

hihi
went out w jasmine in the late afternoon!
hmm had a funn day w her..
anw went amk hub..and orchard..
saw daniel zl hg jeff..hmm not bad uh..
lols..hmm most IMPT thing i must blog!
i went t watch HAIRSPRAY!!!
omg! its super nice show can!! got zac!!!
troy bolton from high sch musical..and omg! he super SHUAI can!!!
*faints..really its nice! and its super sweet ending!!!! omg omg!! i LOVE him so much can!!
PPl must watch HAIRSPRAY! its super nice LOVE show!!!
"TV are in black and white", "DO the checkers."
the show is hilarious!!! omg its NICE!! GREAT!*thumbs up!

i wonder from the show fat and thin
black and white..
its so diff yet can be tog..
so wads w tat...
i just don understand...maybe nobody ever understand..
u wont feel the same w frens and .....
yupps u wont....

its great t have funn its great t do or buy..
but there are times nided for studies..
and i guess the time is alr now..
maybe a little too late..
but nid t start!
JIAYOU GIRL!:D

mood: happy :)

2007-09-02T06:50:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm had a boredED day again..=.=
well did nth much and i dint study for PHY!!!
i'm so dead can..die die..lols..
lols.hais

there's sch tml! sians..hais nv do any homework todae nor study..i'm so dead can..hais..
slack some more..wth! cannot slack alr..lols nid t use the week t study more.!
tml must rmb bring books home le..if not really no nid study..=.=

just got the tot..i guess i'm a failure
in wadever i do..
u see i'm a failure being a sister..my bros don listen nor like me...
i'm a failure in studies..i'm lazy lack of motivation and weak..
i'm a failure in frenship..i don no how t express myself..
i'm a failure who doesnt understand myself..
wad can i do..i'm wrong in everythin..
i just felt so bad..yet no one understood..
guess i just cant be somebody..

p*:its the every trust u put tat makes me scare of losin..
v*:its the sometimes tat i felt so nice t be w..
b*:its the driftin tat causes this silence..i just donno wad t say..
s*:its the fun tat i have tat makes me doesn wanna leave..
z*:its us tat is separated ..maybe class is more impt

mood: not good :[

2007-09-01T06:36:00.000-07:00

HOHOHO!
change of blogskin! (:
omg lahh! seriously i dont understand why YOU keep changing blogskin?!
and why YOU change like almost evry week?! why why why?!
lolol joking! (wher got??!)

I KNOW YOU LOVE ME LA, ~~BABA!~~ DONT SHY DONT SHY! I KNW YOU DO! :D!

& YOU MISS SOMEONE!
SOMEONE = YVONNE!
NOT PAMELA. HAHAHA! (of cos =X)

dont shit lahh hor? (is u can? dono who busy dabian??)

i wna update my blog la! BYE!

I FOL i knw. :D! (yupps!:])

haha and i LOL i knw!:)

just came back from bbq.boredED n thx p for acc me tok,
i noe la.jet also not free so can pei me tok de..=X
anw hais like i said I MISSED.smckf:).
yupps miss yvon! haha..my stead le..siao siao..
anw so qiao met amos at pasirris.. LOLs..
ok la i damn boredED there..tot can ask someone pei me..but nvm
i'm home at LAST! and finally i can slp yeah! bye nites.

lastly: i wanna apologise t jq for wadever i have helped..
u always my sister and i', truly apologetic..
just felt tat this group of us is splitin one by one...
and i'm left w nothin...
so many ppl began t hate me..dislike me..
so many ppl have left me..isolated me..
i just wish t noe wad have happen..
am i at fault?
am i the cause?
why should this be happenin..to me?
sisters..brother..frens..
i just don understand..everythin changED so much..
yet all i could do is t watch as they leave..

mood: helpless :(

2007-08-31T05:57:00.000-07:00

hihi
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY
-mr charles lim
-mdm suriyanti
-ms tan LL
-ms wong PM
-mrs rahmat
-mrs lim WP
-mr wee TH
-mr ong S
-ms chivelle tay
-ms howe
-mr ng WK
-all teachers..

todae performance was great i think! yes
all the practise dint go t waste..i'm glad everythin went fine..!
and its over!now i guess all learnt a lesson..
and lets all jiayou for O's!!!

who are who are who are we!
we are we are 5N3
who are we
5/3
who are we
5/3
who are we
5/3
5/3~ 5/3~5/3~!!!
(we all rocks)

i donno la..just couldnt seems t forget..
lols i donno wad the hell is goin on in me..
who will noe..who would care..
let me fade...........
smckf

note for todae:sad:'(

2007-08-30T06:21:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm TIRED is wad i can say now..
hmm tired on dnt but I HAVE FINISHED! yeah i'm so happy..
hmm tired on the rehearsal but ITS ALL WORTH it..

although we so fuss abt little things..but this are the small little matters tat continues t bond us even more..if we could put in our effort in this..we will put in effort together in wadever lies ahead of us..so hmm 5n3 lets all jiayou for tml final show! but even if it doesnt turn out good just noe tat we have put in our fullest effort..just noe tat we have enjoyed ourselves..don nid others t appreciate but to appreciate our own class!we do have our ups and downs..we laughed we angried we cried we worry we enjoyed! our memories on this..

thanks von and pam on the pillow! i LOVE it lots lots really! truly appreciate it!!! thanks alot guys i LOVE u all!!!:D

to teachers.. i love ur! alot and alot! although sometimes i may dislike ur but thr all the things u have done thr all the times we have learnt thr all the times u had helped! i truly appreciated all tat ur have done! thanks for doin everythin to the fullest for 5/3 although we maybe the most naughtiest class ever..but thanks for bearin w us..and thanks for all the scoldins tat could have wake us up! thanks teachers we love u!!!

u danced well..u did well..yet why arent we able t be back t frens..no matter how hurt i feel..u wont noe..but i really truly wished hard t be back like last time..i just wished u would even view my blog..but i noe u wont..last time ask u tag is like so hard alr.but u did anw...i just wish u can cont teach me maths..i wish for the past!!!

mood: average :/

2007-08-25T20:34:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm ytd was kinda great..went dnt was like went there slackin..=.=
and stupid sister laughed at me for being EARLY..wth..>.<
hmm after tat went practise! although not everyone there but it was great..realli..
guess von wouldnt be so sad alr ba..yes the class is makin effort now..
and i hope all get credits..=]]

todae went eat in the mornin lols..hmm nth much t blog..
i wann go out study todae can anyone ask me out!!!
byebye..

2007-08-24T06:24:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm todae had english oral! hope it turns out rite!pls..
after tat got practise..
my dear classmates..if u wann do it then lets do it t the fullest..
if u wan t learn then put in effort..
i hope everything turn out great on wed and also teachers day..

hmm i nv did realise a day when i got the chance t ever lose a friendship..
a special friendship tat i may not have had ago..but it also maybe the last..
i lost an entertainer..it all happened so sudden and i just cant accept it..
my mind just kept flashin back the past..and it was painful on how u treat me step by step
and ltr broke of this friendship..u said hope u dint hurt me..but actually it tears me.
u said its good t have me as a friend but why have t end this?
is this really neccessary?
"wo zhen de mei xiang dao hui you zhe yi tian.."
i tot i can do things t at least revive this friendship but all i do was dream la..
and this nv could be come true i guess..i'm really sad.. i'm disappointed.. i'm devastated..
really wishin everythin would be back t normal.
and i totally disagree on wad u said.having like someone u cant tok t other ppl..
tat bullshit..and its totally unfair t me..and is really sad t lose u..
its impossible when u suddenly wann me t delete u off my list..
and u shall always be starmoncrapkeyfish:)

von= cheerup i'm 1/2sure tat everythin will goes well..don be too upset. u noe our class is just too playful so hmm think on the bright side everyone is gettin on it now..not too late uhh..=]
pam=thanks for everythin..really made my day..and u and von are just great..thanks.

2007-08-18T20:27:00.001-07:00

hihi
hmm sians.ytd was saddin..
lols in the mornin von lost her phone.don sad le girl.
then in the afternoon go for rehearsal nobody was there
wth la..hais suan le..somemore so sway see him.
give me tat idiot face! wad u think u are.shitter.
suan le u wann do till like tat is it. i always tot u m.oni one entertainer yet.
why do things have t turn out this way?
is there anway t turn things back? i wish there was..
yeah indeed i really lost everythin precious t me..
byebye.

2007-08-17T05:24:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm found out tat i really lost alot of things..
hmm maybe i too emotic le.tats why nobody wanna care abt me..
firstly i lost kh then pam then bro then sis..aiya alot of ppl la..hmm...
i just felt there's always a river in btwn..maybe becos i'm petty..
maybe becos i look on things too hard..i just cant take it..when i'm left out.
and lastly i'm sad.becos of everythin..
hais appearance really matter is it? i guess so..
wad abt internal beauty..? who will cares abt it first?
maybe tat would be answers for a guy?
lols..hais..rumours rumours..shitter la.!
suan le..now nian frenship also no more le. good lols.i hope u are happy w it!
sometimes i don wish t emo de.but i just felt so bored tat i cant do anythin but stone there..
tat maybe why i emo so much..hmm
why our class so lazy de. wish performance would be the best of the best!
and nid t start on mt again le..hope i get in a gd class and GD teacher.sad ms wong wont be teachin.>.< but i disappoint her so no choice i will have t start workin doubly liao..
jiayou gal! u can do it..oni if u are more hardworkin! mustn let heart control u! must do action!

2007-08-14T06:27:00.001-07:00

hihi
yeah now whole class know e thing alr! yes.hope everythin goes well after this..
hmm gotten back o's.SAD.
finally given.fan helped.thx.
but nth happen.maybe hais.suan le..
i donno our cold war will end when? i don dare t tok la.!shitter/:
ok must work hard le..JIAYOU gal!
wo zhi dao wo ke yi de!! gambate..[:
byebye.

2007-08-12T06:20:00.000-07:00

hihi
shall thanks all who accompanied me..thanks bigg bigg!
sad this few days.cant help myself t be any happier..
anw learnt dance! love it! n it was nice! hope everythin would be superly successful!
lookin forward t every rehearsal!
take care peeps.!
tml o's mt results out! omg i super afraid..! GREAT LUCKS EVERYONE!
i shall stop whining from now on..
i wont hope for anythin or complain on anythin..
byebye.

2007-08-08T06:42:00.001-07:00

hihi
srys pamela wee! i'm srys for always sayin tat..
sometimes really jokin oni..but i'm srys for neglectin ur feelins..
was damn sad todae.no one noes.
i cant let out..i tot i simply meant givin it yet such a matter was made.
i donno wad t do..really donno yet no one could help me..
who can give me advice on wad t do??!!
byebye.

2007-08-06T05:45:00.000-07:00

hihi
HAPPY BIRTHDAY T SISTER OH
hmm todae superly sad la.
ignore me u hell/: anw i'm srys if i ever annoyed u somehow..]
alrite hope tml i really have t guts t give u..hope u like it.
byebye.

`010 take care n rest well..

2007-08-05T06:41:00.000-07:00

hihi
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!
played badminton w uncle and cousin! cool.
sad la sad la sad la.so fed UP! p noes why.
eh, u gu yi de rite! suan le.nvm
went tampines mall saw adidas shirt! cool nice..but $38.90 so ex!=.=
and converse shirt $33.00 lols..sad.
byebye.

2007-08-04T04:18:00.000-07:00

hihi went cck w lj mf n serena....bought my shirts.
and also bought xin's present and other gifts.
aiya sad la todae.everythin sucks..suan le why am i feelin like tat
i don have t..i really don.!
anw national day comin! nxt week long holiday yeah! must touch up on sci!
jiayou gal! i noe u can wang diao everythin de.must try!(consolin myself)
byebye.

2007-08-03T06:23:00.000-07:00

hihi
just had my maths pre-prelim.not well done.
sians nobody chat w me..
not feeling good.maybe just tired.(isnt it just an excuse?)
we are all driftin apart..yet nobody notice? or just doesnt wanna care?
i tot we used t be v gd? wad has gone into us?
don anyone give a damn? its hard t get back again if everyone hack cares..
i donno la.suan le.
byebye.

2007-07-28T22:10:00.000-07:00

hihi
yawn so tired can..
haha ytd slept at 1plus am..
haha thanks yl n smckf:D
gg out.
to someone. pls be strong/u forever in our heart.nth will happen t u!
5n3 shall united togt as one.
byebye.

2007-07-28T07:08:00.000-07:00

hihi
1year alr! but though i din go on waitin alr..
I'M not stupid ok!
anw todae was BORED
smckf la don wan acc..
nvm but thanks.
alrite la todae.
suddenly i feel tat earth is rotatin..[:
byebye.

2007-07-27T06:43:00.000-07:00

hihi
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANG YONG!:D
felt nv ending sadness..
who noes who cares who bothers..
no one would ever stop down and listen t my agony..
i nv tot i would think i think i don have frens arnd..
surprised of me hardworkin.."feelin e stress!"
yeah jiayou! and work on! buck up!! girl all the way!
let's chiong tgt.
byebye.

2007-07-23T06:28:00.000-07:00

hihi
had happy day todae donno why.
anw so ps at fc..
i still scare la abt the presentation.!
hate my video.
wad if they see?
omg! no face alr.sians.
got t stay focus for work! revise hard gal!!!
byebye.

2007-07-21T04:48:00.001-07:00

hihi
had funn day w pam.
sushi was great again.
hope everythin goes well tml.
byebye.

2007-07-20T06:55:00.000-07:00

hihi
LOVE the bear! thanks!
isolated myself todae.
actually he dotes alot on us.
just tat i doesnt noe.felt v v guilty.
i'm sorry.really.
byebye.

2007-07-19T06:43:00.000-07:00

hihi
todae english was good..hope everythin goes rite tml!
ppl wish me great lucks!!
nobody made my day todae/:
byebye.

2007-07-18T06:36:00.000-07:00

hihi
i'm sad t the core! u idiot!
i hate my bloody self!
byebye.

2007-07-17T06:32:00.000-07:00

hihi
todae sushi was nice!$40++ (=.=")
boreD day,nothin much..
byebye.

2007-07-16T05:58:00.000-07:00

hihi
LOLS..
todae listening suck!
byebye.

2007-07-14T21:02:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm ytd went t ah ma hse cos nicole birthday as i said earlier in my previous post..
hmm but sian lehh there..
i kinda felt tat time realli past v fast lols..
anw in the mornin went t have breakfast w uncle ahma and brothers
lols went coffee bean so damn ex can..
anw hmm ltr went back ahma hse..then my another uncle there..
watch a movie called trebithia..
not v sure of the spelling la..but its about imagination..
about kids la..and it was so touching can..nearly cried..
haiis..hmm anw played abit of majong..ytd lady luck wasnt w me..
lols then nv play alr so sian watch them play..
then in the nite.start msgin..
then pam called..haiis donno la..
lols hmm at there till so late..
so slpy yet cant slp..
haiis...anw got ppl entertain me can alr haha..thanks..
lols yl they all went watch movie at 1235am can..=.= so late alr..
transformer..lols why don wan watch harrypotter.!
its cool can!
ohh ya yiling went t watch w me on friday! so cool!!!
wth..its so damn nice can..then still got alot say not nice=.=
hmm but thank lingz anw..if not nobody willing go watch w me..
it was superly funn..
anw todae donno goin study anot lehh..
they all la..slp till now i doubt they have wake up alr..
haiis so long..donno still gg anot..if not i gg t call others out alr..so late le la..
hmm..shall see..give them till 1pm i suppose..
haha..
haiis nowadays so sad can..cos fan nao on somethings.
hmm everythin thing had somehow changed..
well..its like everythin is not used t be wad it is last time..
dont u get it..
maybe everybody will be like tat..
hmm but its like nvm la..
anw nobody would even care..
i just have t shut my mouth and get on w life..
if i men men bu le..ppl would ask..
but so wad theres no changed..
i don even give a damn now..
u might think i being selfish..
yet have u ever give a tot for me and others..
yes i being selfish for wanting everythin t goes rite..
but arent u over-reacting sometimes..
not for us..and i guess u noe..
its like we are beside u..yet u can..
haiis..suan le..its ur own like.i wont say anythin more..
if not it would be unfair t u..
everyone has his/her freedom..
i have no rite t comment on it...
woman are always the emotic creatures..>.<
tat sucks la..=.="
alrite la i shall not make anymore comments.
`ppl u've changed
byebye.
i glad tat i finally let go.:DD

2007-07-12T06:21:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm todae thurs le..fast??
haha yeah fast..hmm anw todae was kinda a short day..
lols got english did oral conversation..omg! hmm but it was alrite
haiis keep seeing ms wong..
i'm super sadded can..
haiis how? i no face to faced her alr la..
omg! hmm anw..in the mornin ask ppl teach me maths..
lols but anw thanks alot!
hmm ltr then had chem lesson which we played water..
but in the end laren and chooshuin fought..
omg! so chong dong..
haiis nvm guys..=.="
hmm anw after tat had our dnt lesson..
well slack la..haha but had funn there finally so-called finished my evaluation..
hmm hope tml can pass up lols..
and ltr had pe!
i so scare till my leg shake la..
hmm but finally! passed! haha
lols i did time myself and i thought i got 1700
but the teacher weird de say i 1750..just passed..
and others who came after me actually got lower 1700-1730 and so on..
lols wth..like tat i shouldnt have run so hard lols..but i'm glad i actually pass can alr
hmm anw ltr lj and serena actually takin 962 w me..however donno why they say they take 859..
so i then ask my uncle come fetch me..
i wasnt feeling well can..stomach ache.
now having flu..wth..
lols hmm srys realli srys i dono..connection got problem after run..
hmm anw i told 010 i giving her..
then after gg back t take our bags i totally forgotten..
hmm my memory getting worse can..chan sia..
well i gave him too..haha..
still got lots more t give..haven finish omg! tml nid t give youliang..oh shit.nvm ltr then do lols lazy go down and take la..hmm donno wan get thing or not leh..if not suan le la nxt time then give lols..srys..anw i would be giving t everyone wad..
hmm hope sr not angry w me can le..
hmm had funn day w fifi and inah..sitting w them hor ..
really become crazy alr lols..haha but funn!
well sad varsu nv come if not more funn..
hmm i personally feel tat..i become closer t whoever sits near me.
donno leh i feel tat everytime i go find gf they all i nothin t say..
now kh always got find yp ver all tat seldom come find me le..
haiis sad.. then i also don like being light bulb..
von also seldom follow..
hmm donno wads happening la..
sometimes i feel tat i really selfish hmm..i'm really srys if i did..
but maybe sometimes ur should see ba..light bulb too light also not gd
i don feel good u also wont feel good..
so hmm..must zi wo zhi dao jiu ok le..
well..tml friday maybe gg watch harry potter dono with who oni..
sat nicole bday..my uncle's daughter..
sunday i wanna study..donno who would go study w me..shall ask..[:
not too many i hope..
well alrite la..nth much t blog alr..well byebye
friends are always better..
can be more free..more daring!

2007-07-10T06:33:00.000-07:00

happy :D

2007-07-10T04:51:00.000-07:00

10/07/07
worst day of my life..
sucks can! hmm..had my o's mt oral today..
oh my goodness la..
it was so damn badly done..
i actually really got no feel and kept jerking when i reading the passage..
and i actually mis-intepreted one of the questions..
wow siao that really sucks can!
hmm already so sad le..
in the afternoon before going for oral..
sorry pamela..i'm sorry i will try to get another i promise.
anyway got upset about another thing also
and of cause on my oral
sarks really..
i don't know if i get to pass anot..
AHHH i so afraid can..
couldn't help myself..burst out after that..
hmm anyway was ok already..
LOLS went to have dinner with jetteck pamela
lols don't you think i'm the brightest light bulb ever?
well i myself think so can.
hmm aiiya i also don't know i just felt superly disappointed in myself..
although everyone says i put in effort can already..
but wads the point of putting in when you don't give out?
haiis stupid right..why must i be nervous.
shitter! what happen to me la..
arghh! hmmm anyway i just felt i had no face to faced ms wong again..
sorry teacher..sorry..
no mood to do anything..
somemore i'm superly angry about something..
everything sucks can..why must things all happened at the same time..
i don't even know how to settle it la.
i really don't yet nobody was able to give me advice..
everyone says nvm don't care..
but i really don't know la..haiis..
suan le..i shall solve everythin myself.
kao wo bah!!!
hmm aiiya i now really no mood to do the stuffs already..
but i really want to give 010 and fiq by this week
how wth...arhhh!
aiiiya say already..i'm so fan-up with my emotions and things irritating me..
i don't know how to take everything by myself also..
wth..
suan le..let everythin be it..zou yi bu suan yi bu ba
but i'm sure my friend won't even bother about it cause they are my friends they won't because of stupid thing and leave me alone..
i mean guys like baide jet brother and many more
NOT LIKE YOU
ok nothing much to blog le byebye ppl..
tears are always in my eyes
why must you always be the one
helping me to get back to my usual state..
i just don't understand..

2007-07-09T06:46:00.000-07:00

hihi
todae monday alr so damn fast rite..>.<
hmm well tok abt ytd..
went study w damn lots of ppl..
but actually at first is oni me sr and yl
well ltr in the mornin june ask me wann go study so i asked her along..
hmm then when we got there pam called
say she not gg ah ma hse alr..
she and yp wanna come join..
so ok lols..
while waitin june say musi and baide wanna come too
omg lols..anw ok lols they came..
hmm but yp put aeroplane but in the end jet came..
lols total got 8ppl lols
when jet came brian yy kb came too..
lols damn lots of ppl rite
oni study ma..nid so many...
zhao zhi dao jiu sui ye don call le lols
study from 12pm till 7pm..sat at sunplaze mac..
anw..ppl ms in the middle till nite can..
in the end kinda knew but nvm..
well todae was kinda crazy in class la..they super funny can..
wad laugh laugh lols..but most funn topic on todae is
when ur two side armpit is itchy how are u gg t scratch it..
haha cos varsu made a v funny action todae
her arm v itchy ma lols.and scatch in class so openly can..
haha history lesson we were discussin lols.=X
hmm..anw after sch went eat w pam jet baide yp..
actually wana go watch w brother they all de..
lols i lazy go home change la..
v srys..anw shall catch a movie nxt time w u..and u must treat i don care!
haha..lols.hmm after dinner baide went play bball and pamyp jet acc me t cp..
yp went off first then jet and pam send me till me mum shop lols..
haiis pam..don bi wo la..
i realli realli cmi lols..and i realli don like ppl bi me..
so don pls..
anw the thing alr thrown off..
not me wor..is my mum..
lols aiiya..donno la..ms till siao but i realli dint think too much
oni angry abt it..
hmm don always assume i realli thought too much cos i realli dint
realli..i dint give a sec tot on throwin it into the dustbin..
so it could prove i realli dint wad..lols..
anw thanks alot to pam and jet for acc me..
hmm sometimes i just wish t be alone..
but i'm still glad ur w me..
hmm anw tml mt o's oral lehh!
wth sure die one can..omg omg
i so scare la..
now my emotions all mixed together alr..
becos i'm sad yet i'm scare
hmm well sad for wad lols.
aiiya not sad la i don like why sad lols
serious..hmm oni angry la..
srys for nowadays de ms..dint wan de..but i will change..
ur too don always ms..
hmm vonn..u todae super quiet lols..
don think u see smiling pasta then sweet inside..must talk can..
hmm somethin happeneD? tell me bah haha..
vonnie..don stress or sad or wad..must be happy!
same to p wee and the rest..must always stay happy la!
crazy when u can lols like i in class also donno wad i doin sometimes..
anw i got sakinah varsu and june t laugh w me..
so hmm must entertain urself w ppl beside u too!
we being separated just nice each got ppl in btwn lols teacher purposely de..
but nvm i shall entertain ur if ur bored..so tell me haha
giving ur the lamest jokes i guess=XX haha
well todae had quite a nice day..
hope tml can go off earli..wanna go alot of places..or stay at home?
hmm shall see lols..=]]
ok byebye ppl..take care^^
thanks for all the encouraging things..
realli appreciated..
well guess we better off w frens bah

2007-07-06T06:55:00.000-07:00

hihi
PAMELA WEE
srys for all the ms suddenly..
hmm srys srys
wont le nxt time..
i'm elated by msgin..maybe i askin for more..
hmm but i wont..
anw tml is 070707 hmm hope u have a great day w him[:
hmm yeah finally gave out the things..
still left w his,010,eleanor,jess and smckf
hmm hard t give lehh..
well nvm shall give them by nxt week..
as i told 010 [:
hmm nowadays quite talkative in class
even sakinah beside me also become so talkative lols haha
me sakinah varsu and sometimes june siao alr haha
hmm well great time sitting w them :DD
haax..anw tml gg sch la
wow lau sian..hmm no nid de but haiis nvm..
hmm got oral practice.uhh i so scare omg!!
well anw nvm shall say wadever i can lols..sometimes donno how t intepret then die le..
hmm tml gg out w jess hy and eleanor..
donno wher but hope somewher funn!!
haha...well 070707 lehh sure must take NEO!!
haiis cant take it w pam and von..
but hope they have funn too!!
hmm..alrite lols.haha nth better t add le..
eh,got! i finally finished my production schedule!
but still got evaluation..
lols..hmm hope tml will be a funnn and HAPPY day for me..
hope everythin goes well..esp in the afternoon bah!
hmm alrite then blog nxt time cya![:
each day pass u no longer stand still in me..
i begin t wonder why..

2007-07-01T19:36:00.000-07:00

hihi
yeah ytd finish my dnt..
hopin t finish english todae.
sians now at uncles workplace w my bro
hope i can go home soon do my homework..
well uncle ask his fren help me buy dunhill perfume..
hmm scare not the same lehh..
haiis nvm..
anw i also donno wad t do now so use this time t blog abit..
haha slack!
PM![:
everytime when i needed someone
nobody was there for me..
i envied those who had ppl t care and concern..
although sometimes i had those
yet when i realli needed someone
nobody knew..
i don like expressing it out
adding t ppl's agony
i do like helpin ppl w their personal problems..
and i felt elated by it..
its great u noe..helpin ppl
seeing smiles on their faces
my fren once told me..
if u cant help urself how are u goin t help ppl
my answer t tat is..
helping ppl is equal t helping myself..
yet another qns asked
if u not happy
how u goin help ur fren t be happy
this...i just have t say
i will make my fren happy no matter wad
i love them..
sometimes i don understand myself too..
becos certain matters make me v confuse..
sometimes i smiled..but yet i feel its fake..
but somehow i will bring out t best t ppl
tats wad i will do..
so its great having frens around who will smile w me..
i don like ppl t be sad..
tats why i don like my own frens t be sad..
tats the least i can wish for..
not for ppl t be concern abt my feelings but
ppl t take care of themselves..
smiling always :DD
i always sad becos of my appearance and found it t be the thing tat make me isolating
some ppl like t say them selve
yet t me..they are perfect or great alr..
hmm..donno la..maybe i do care abt my own appearance..\
i just want t smile my best yet i donno when..
well...
tats all i have t say...
don take it realli t heart la..
i crapping around oni..[:
byebye..
maybe few more tries..
and u out of my heart...
i want t forget u..

2007-07-01T04:11:00.000-07:00

hihi
todae had a sians day..
ytd was quite bored..
sad tat mabel wasnt able t make it t funfair but hope u have funn at work.
in the mornin we went there and had quite a conversation until the funfair started
hmm we were in charge of the dunkin machine..
lols the funfair was overall sians can..
cos nth much t play de..
anw when my duty.. i did nth much as most of the jobs were taken by other ppl..
and the grp and the plannins all no nid follow lols..
hmm then after my duty i went w june and von..pam went t serve the vip..
keep seeing 010..haha she so good realli gave me a balloon but cant fly..
hmm nvm thanks also..[:
and also thanks sr for acc me msg the day
but then..nvm then ltr i went off w eleanor..as she's alone same as me..
so we went sian-in arnd..
lols she wanted t play the meteor ride but i don dare..
instead huiyuan showed us her monkey..
lols and i wanted one too..
we played a bit however dint get any tokens so eleanor called wenxi t help..
waited for wenxi..saw the bands performin..
hmm no comment on tat la..
anw after wenxi came within few mins we got 14 tokens..
haha tats cool lols..hmm then went t exchange monkey..
haax i got the most unique one..oni brown..
well i loved it!
thanks alot eleanor and wenxi..
hmm then went t find jessica.together w guojie jiaqi and their frens..
ltr find my uncle and bro and ahma..
hmm brought my bro t the meteor ride..
waited there so long yet he cant go up..
srys! hmm then brought him t play the pirates boat..
lols..hmm well after tat we slack for a while then i went back for my duty alr..
but i did nth just sat there
nobody tok t me..wanted t find eleanor and jessica but they went back alr..
haiis so i moodswingED
lols realli sad la.
don care la..like zixin said teammates are always closer..
ytd saw zixin but she w terence.and zhijun.
hmm if she still in school she would not have ps me alone de.
haiis hmm i miss her so much..so sad..
and so srys t peizhen..cant acc her when she came back t sch..
hmm when i havin my second duty i wanted ppl t go walk walk arnd w me..
yet i cant find and don have t courage t ask.
lols..everyone had quite alot of fun..
me too when i was w my juniors..
alrite lols..
srys gf and the grp i dint spend much time w ur..
and srys kh i wasnt able t enjoy w u..
tml i maybe gg t my uncle's work place t help out..
so cant go out w jessica and eleanor and v srys for tat..
but we will have chance de..
hope it's soon b4 my bigg exam..
hmm nid t do home work now..
byebye..[:
u were always not there when i needed u
yet when i asked..
answer has always been an old friend..

2007-06-25T05:36:00.000-07:00

hihi
todae was a sad day la
hmm anw not v sad when gg home
haax..hmm anw
sad becos of ytd
ytd nite chatted w yp..
hmm he told me alot of man's view..
and i felt tat its reali true..cos mostly
ppl don dare t say out..
yet he can say it out so straightforward and i realli don mind wad he did
well..its cool haha
hmm i told him abit on wad i found out..
he said sure is no feelin de la
and also hmm partly becos of appearance but i feel tat its fully becos
haiis i dono la..
haax he said last time my face look like bittergourd..
lols hmm true arh?
omg!! hmm dint noe..haha
so funny lols..he say i laugh like wad oni haha
hmm..sians..now nth much t do..
tryin t get my focus on dnt..
tml got coursework..
ltr nv update mr lim gg kill lols
anw english on wed..hmm wonder which class we will be posted
but like wad von say hope not much change lols
anw got my vietnam photos haha finally..[:
hmm shal update it in my photobucket lols..
hmm got time then post it up haha
lols alot lehh...but u see 1week..hmm u will think so little oni..
called spencer just now ask abt trainin lols
hmm he say tml 730pm safra close lehh
so how t go trainin wth!!
nvm lols haha hmm alrite la..nth much t update on..bb then[:
away away and away
i wann see u no more
u make me miserable
just becos u being so realistic!
damn ass!

2007-06-23T23:20:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm sians todae will be at home..
anw nth much t do..
have no feel of doin homework lols anw i'm doom la
haiis sian. sch reopens nid t go trainin somemore..hmm
sians how i wish i was like other peeps focusin on exam rather than having such great responsibility
as like if this time nv get anythin our heads will roll can
cos this time is the so called pre determine for our schools cca achievement lols
haiis if cant get awards both us and teacher's head will roll..
hmm sians..lols
anw nobody online t chat again..
all busy with work and studies..
ahh! super sians can..hmm
pam la.oni can sat online..
but haiis..hmm boring..
father slpin..and mother out t work..
brother went donno wher..and another one..sit at comp play maple.
now got X2 ma..
lols damn boring la.haiis..donno wad t do..
ahhh!! faster online lehh..
nobody t chat w ..haiis.
suan le..hmm todae super sians cos i noe is last day of school "so called" holiday lols
hmm..i don even have a proper 1day holiday la..
haiis..hmm first week got our e3 camp..
second week went vietnam which i feel its more t learning of geography the sub which i don take..
third week got dnt camp..which make us half dead..
and the fourth week..nid go sch everyday for lesson and also dnt..
haiis plus trainin included for some days la..
anw spencer so idiot can..
if nv go he will keep askin when i go back train..
i go train he doesnt give a damn la.make me dry fire for 1/2 hour.
tired can..then he like forget this forget tat..
arghh fake concern lols..haiis..
sians.hmm anw hope tml lesson would not be as bad bah..
cos not yet finish all the homework..
lols..hmm alrite la tats all for todae bb
whenever its seems near..
u will or i will back off..
tats why we always seems tat far...

2007-06-23T01:55:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm in the morning slept till 1pm then wake up haha
lols hmm tired ma..hmm..anw ate my LUNCh haha..
hmm then pam called me say ask me faster go online..
lols wth..
anw sr was online and also jet jet
hmm..chat w pam and sr for a while..
yh tok t me abit too..and went off t lesson
hmm..haha happy chattin..
he also onlined but haiis nvm..see his nick also don feel like tokin t him alr lols..
hmm haven do homework yet..seriously i'm doom can!
hmm lesson todae was so hard la..
anw after this maybe me and my cousin changing t cp for lesson..
cos this teacher teach till so slow de..
hmm nvm lols haha anw todae is jingyong birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY T YOU..
hmm got no presents but hope u spend a great bdae w family and ter bah..
hmm..sians i nth t do lehh..
wanna chat again but hor everyone offlined alr..lols wth..
sians..hmm..alrite lols monday school reopens alr..more work and scoldin comin..
haax so ytzens all be prepared bah!!
alrite la..nth much t say alr..bb
i don understand seriously..
u do have someone in mind..

2007-06-22T23:49:00.001-07:00

yeah i'm happy..
happy belated bdae t sr..22nd of june=]]

2007-06-22T01:16:00.000-07:00

hihi
haha blogged todae! 22nd of june haha
lols hmm i'm lame alrite
well sians got bored when in dnt
cos i'm kinda finished so haiis nth t do
in the mornin had physics and chem
lOls wth the chem also same..like tat i should study if i noe it earlier
i totally forgott everythin lol..haiis
hmm anw after the test went back dnt did some touchin up
then went mos burger w pam and von
haax chat there and went back..
hmm nth t do alr.so went t walk arnd..
nobody needed my help..so i was totally sians.
forget tat von no need go back..lols still waited there=.=
hmm nvm then come home alr lols
lols francis tan class all slack arhh?
but he also bad la..nv come help them for the circuit..
anw they nid t com back tml..lols waste time lehh
wow the thunder was scary alrite..well haiis dint get t tok t him lehh
but nvm la..anw sians lols..haiis
i donno la..siao alr..lols
hmm alrite la..tonight maybe gg play pool w lijuan they all..lols
haax oni time t enjoy b4 gg sch haha=X
alrite then have funn everyone!! bb
i donno la..we arent even close?
still like hundred feets away....

2007-06-21T04:04:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm todae feel like bloggin cos its 21st todae! haiis
hmm nvm haha=X
well todae went t sch suddenly pam said cannot don wear uniform
lols but nv catch or scold tml must rmb wear uniform lols
hmm then had the ss and hist test todae
kinda sux la cos i donno wad i writin also haiis
hmm anw went for lunch and ltr dnt
hmm dnt abt t finish lehh then papaya not here
cos he got course
hais if not i can finish alr
well tml gg training i guess
cant slack la..nxt week nationals i wonder who will wish me goodluck..
hmm anw hope its him la..but anyone also can i will be v happy lols
hmm well from 1plus till 5pm i oni did v little stuffs
most of the time went around playin w other ppl stuffs and helpin ppl like ah ben t make his artefact look nicer lols..no sense of perfection
hmm haha v free la..well but i kind of happy todae
as i get t tok t him haha
well alrite la cos not too many ppl ma so hmm haha
hmm tml still nid go back for a while cos assemble and make some change
lols..hope instructor is free for me..
hmm..tml still have physics and chem retest
lols sians.cannot fail somemore
hmm nvm shall study lols
haiis..alrite la nth much t blog alr..bb
i'm elated<33s

2007-06-20T06:31:00.000-07:00

hey
long time no blog
hmm this blog skin is so damn cool can! all thanks t DASAO haha
hmm anw ytd met up w her
haha oni for a short while as i was headin t cp
hmm wow she so good can walk w me t cp..
hmm well srys ehh..ask u come meet me for little things
haiis.. anw bought handkechief haha
for her and xin
haha anw todae late afternoon met up w zixin
yeah! finally but hor v short realli short
we chatted abit of things but like the feelin v strange
hmm so sad! but felt super elated when saw her
well i miss them lots la haha=X
anw i got her little things too hope she don mind..
well sians. dnt still not yet finish and haven bought the batteries and funnel die alr la=.="
hmm tml gg trainin? well see first la not sure yet see if i can finish my dnt anot
hah but i lazy go so hmm wont be gg ba i guess
lols nxt week nationals zone alr still don buck up i realli doom lols
anw prelim is on the 28th of june..so hmm team lets jiayou!
anw in the team got me huiyuan and dengchao wangfeng become the reserve for i donno wad reason fed up w tat coach alr!
hmm nvm la.well todae maths test was easier than midyr but haiis don wanna tok more la
tml still havin humanities
how sia..haiis realli no hope de lols
hmm thurs got anythin gg on??
donno i forget things easily so if i ever promise or make an appoinment w u
do remind me again cos i don rmb
hmm..memory gettin worse each day
donno wad happen t me too..
haiis go trainin alone hor will die de
die of waitin and embarrassment
cos spencer la ass la oni look at other sch de..
then still hurried me t go back trainin when he doesnt give a damn on us
then v ps t always chose the wrong place t stand cos always will sway sway stand in front of pistol de
then donno how t shoot alr..haiis
yeah my highest now is 390 finally touchED 9
haha=x if not i'm forever 8 de lols haiis
hmm anw tml my uncle will be goin court!
all the best t him and god bless him!
hmm todae is the 20th of june
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U
mtlkt :DD
well last time still got presents for u
but nvm shall forget about the past then;D
hmm sians nobody online t chat w me..:((
alrite la..since nth t do shall end bloggin lols cya:D
its the air instead of hopes
when could i ever step in to the deep door of urs?

2007-06-17T06:27:00.000-07:00

heyhey
hmm HAPPY FATHER's DAY t all the father in the world..
hmm well dint celebrate la
cos todae my uncle son also birthdae as well as my grandma..
so happy birthday t both (:
hmm anw was a sian day la..
but tml gg english in the mornin and ltr having physics lesson
after tat den gg training lols..sian..>.< but
haha after trainin maybe gg out w jessica..
maybe gg play arcade..omg! tats cool..wanna play the one we played at bishan..
hmm last sat went training w her..
then the training was like wad oni lols..
hmm we traine for 1and 1/2 hour oni lols..
and packed up v quickly..cos gg out
hmm saw him..tot i don get t ..but nvm.so wad.lols
hmm anw went t bishan..cos i wanna eat subway
haa=X hmm then went walk arnd bishan..
omg! its sian de.cos nth t walk
but i spend alot.donno why
hmm walk arnd quite long bought quite lots of stuffs..
hmm then went take neo..haha we took v long can..
and went t perfume shop..saw ah gua..but hmm don so bad shall not say further
well after tat went arcade.
had super lots of funn although we played 3 games oni
hmm first playde the rock fever arhh? donno la
and hook t the game alr..
after tat played even faster speed
made us dizzy la omg! hmm then went on t play time crisis 4omg! its cool can.
but i played super lots of time b4
nvm..hmm then after tat arnd 4pm went off alr..
well nv go lesson..so sorry t my cousin..
then went t yh house.
there got lijuan serena yonglin yonghui
hmm then sat there till 7pluspm went off..
yonghui and yonglin acc me t pasa malam..
yeah finally bought something * lols..hmm
then mother as me go cp..so yh and brother acc me walk there lols haha=XX
hmm..alrite la nth much t blog
lols pamela and 010 keep bullyin me..
say me.. nvm lols anw 010>> tangtang*
i love sweets** hmm no offence la..just playin((:
hmm anw alrite then tml still got lesson bb
i tot u would reali think like wad they say
but u don.u just don get wad i mean

2007-06-15T07:29:00.000-07:00

hi peeps..
haax..long time no blog..well shall start bloggin for the vietnam trip till now(:
hmm well went t airport last sat mornin..
hmm pam and yahui was there t send us off.
hmm was surprise when lijuan serena meifang minghui yonghui went
but appreciated!! to all!
lols brother wasnt there so mei liang xin rite
shirong jet chuxiang youliang and forget still got who came t send henry and yongkang off
wow brothers man!
hmm well was kinda sad..lingz as me if he got wish me yi lu shun feng anot
but no lols..well guess also donno ba..
suan le can so sad..
hmm anw sat in the plane w joel and thisha
kinda bored..reach there its was omg! HOT can!
hmm then first day went t the museum of ethnology
well alrite la.saw alot of vietnam stuffs. and it was totally hot there la=.="
hmm then hmm aiiya some parts forget alr
psps..hmm anw durin the trip i LOVE cip the most can..
hmm but it was a short cip done.wished i did much more.=[[
hmm anw sapa was nice! coolin..
and the best meal we ever had was at halong bay..
CRABS!! whee so cool lols
anw was sick alr on the 2/3rd day..till now?
have been eatin panadol everynite..
cannot make it la..s giddy can..+.+"
well..i kinda like the train ride..COS no briefin..
so tired la..the teachers don even let us slp on bus..
entertainment made us so paiseh..
but 4/6 have been trained..so nice..
so brave i mean no scare de lols
wow .. hmm anw at halong bay we saw beautiful limestones cave.
and also we went 20FLIGHTS of stairs just t watch a short sunset..
hmm it was tiring but its good experience..=]]
well hmm on the last day
was kinda sad..cos kinda miss the grp la..
and also after mr teo speech i tot t myself abt how my parent loved me..
yet how i treated them
hmm actually can ren one..cos danial la..
haiis nvm
ohh lett me tell ur the frens i made in the trip..
they are. Lynette,Liting,WanLing,Yupei,Huiyu,Vanessa,Sophia,Yuyin,Bertina,Camy,Amos,Danial,Teow xu,Jeffery,Joel,Hengguang,still got lots more..but some don realli noe de.
hmm srys if i forgotten t put ur name'
anw had funn day w von and the grp
anw must thanks yiling for the photos[[=
hmm took alot of pictures when we at diff places but still not yet figured out how t upload camera pics into comp=X
well hmm after tat had my dnt camp
lols dint realli wann stay overnite
but hmm nvm ..anw still not finish yet can!
terrible..hmm but quite great too
cos i get t noe alot of stuffs from yupei and 10
haha abt *her lols
but so bad kept gossipin=XX
hmm well had funn at the camp ONI tiring!
cos they don let us sit!
wth! hmm my leg so painful..but nvm
at least i'm goin finsh my artefact'
and i'm so happy!!
hmm got some bu hao de things'which made me superly sad
even when goin back also
wth~ suan le la
hmm well tml goin training alr
with jess! yeeps so long nv see her and them alr..
haiis..hmm anw maybe goin out w her tml
untill 3pm bah i nid rushed back..
and after 4pm maybe goin yh house..lols
hmm well i'm tired..gonna slp soon..
haiis why not online yet?? i wanna chat chat chat..
i wanna chat w pam him starmoncrapkeyfish and lots lots
nvm..alrite la..
so far for so much..
nites everyone!
maybe i should still think its fren:D

2007-05-29T07:13:00.000-07:00

hmm well
todae had quite a day lols
yeah finally checked my material alr..
haha so uptight on gettin my stuffs done..
lols haha von was like wow u realli wann faster do arhh..
haha..anw had vietnam meetin todae..
YEAh got our vietnam t..it was cool alrite=]]
haax..wish i had our class t ready too..
hmm sad..
lols anw everyday will study till 7pm..
cos dnt..lols haiis think tml no nid go w them t beach alr..cos i no time
so srys...
hmm anw todae was just cool haha
cos when we came back from milk cafe we ate jelly icecream
haha me and von was jokin all the way
lols and then saw yl.haha so cool
:DD hmm
todae mornin vp catch our rubberbands
lols diff colour..might as well turn the whole sch and sch shirt into dark colour
last time watch being said too colourful..now rubberbands
lols this are minor things can..
hmm anw..von realli and p got "yuan"
everytime she here we will see him de..+.+"
we ate icecream in sch nearly let him see..
isnt tat sway..+.+"
haha.. hmm anw life is funn without anw bad thoughts isnt it![:
haax alrite tml still have english
donno why no mt kept yawning in class
IS NONE STOP ONE can!!
omg! smth wrong w me..terribly!!
haax..yeah my cousin came back from china and bought me some soveniors..so nice of her
shall get smth for her during my vietnam trip then:DD
hmm..hope everyday so as nice! and had photo takin todae!
tats so cool!=XX
hmm alrite la..gtg
byebye=]]

2007-05-27T00:21:00.000-07:00

ARHH
TML O's MOTHER TONGUE
I WISH I CAN PASS i wish i can get distinction!!
god bless mi hard pls!!
hmm so sad too..cos will not be havin class with ms wong alr
i wish this day nv end..its like so hard t leave her lols
she's too great!
MS WONG ROX can!!
hmm anw did ppr2 in the mornin and shit can..i gotten 40half over 70
so low..and counted its just a c5..
but hmm add my comp and letter but at least comp must have 33 and letter must have 14 lols
then confrim a2..hmm and listening + oral la..but tat one..
hmm got higher chances gettin distinction lols..
haiis.so scary can!!haiis i'm scare scare scare!!
hmm..i felt sad sad sad sad
why la..I HATE U TO THE CORE CAN..
u don give a damn
u don and u nv did
I HATE U
i hate u i hate u i hate u
its my biggest mistake for likin u.

2007-05-24T05:20:00.000-07:00

LALALAs
i felt v v v v v BAD todae!!
flunked my mother tongue ppr for sure!!
and got so damn sad abt one thing..
haiis WAD THE HELL..i hate this life..
I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U!!
i hate u for treatin mi as nobody
i hate u for not giving mi a chn
i hate u for being like tat
most imptly
i hate myself for likin u
i just don wanna lose u...

2007-05-23T05:47:00.000-07:00

hey yo
long time no blogg..hmm nth much happen nowadays la
but hmm.well donno how t say also..
i stress up and i'm sad la
hmm alot of reason..but nvm
shall concentrate on O's first!!
hmm anw i miss those outins..and i miss goin shopping..omg!
i so damn bored in sch and at home doin work
but i have to!! and i shall ENDURE:DD
haha=XX alrite la nth t blog le..bb=]]
i dono why u stopped..
maybe it indicate tat
u don wanna _ mi..
i donwanna hate u

2007-05-17T03:31:00.000-07:00

someone is very proud of you
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someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun
someone thinks the world of you
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somebody values your advice
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someone loves the way you make them feel
someone wants to be with you
someone hears a song that reminds them of you
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someone stayed up all night thinking about you someone is alive because of you
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a note extracted from email =DD

well so long dint update alr..
nowadays been t yh house..haha its funn of cos
tat time went is with yl..
haha lols and gf sister kh serena mh yh was there
and we had lots of funn
then the second time was with kh yl yh
went there t play lols..
yiling ltr then joined..
haha had lots of funn..then prank call pam..
LOLs choco chip**
yl is cucumber*
nico is chocochip frequency*
she is puah pe ED
yeah..i not any of it..
LOLS alrite la..just jokin..make life more funn
no offence alrite=DD
hmm anw had alot of stress doin mt
LOLS..its V V V tiring u noe..
everyday is comp letter writing ppr2
and LOTS OF HOMEWORK
haiis..headache man!!*
cannot make it..
nvm SHALL JIAYOU!!
ohh just got back my results..
english = f9
maths = f9
science = f9
mt = b4
dnt = c6
humans = f9
LOLS horrible rite!!! arghh die le la!! cmI
hmm nvm !! must JIAYOU!! lets jiayou together=]]
tok t nth t tok
i wish it wasnt mi who initiated..
yet u just don get it..

2007-05-06T04:57:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm so long nv update alr
LOLs i having serious headache now!! omg!
hmm.. this few days i so pro
not online haha=X but kinda sian if everyday online..
hmm well nowadays got kinda close t my dar.
LOLs donno why..hmm maybe she kinda noe mi bah
so its like suddenly she asked mi
why am i not given a chance..
hmm u ask mi how i noe..
she even noe wad i gg t ans nxt..
haax..she say not an excuse lols..
hmm yeah i also think so..
i tot alot abt it..
and after tat..in the nite went t meet mabel and pam
yeah finally got t meet her
was so happy..haha=X went foodcourt eat..mi and pam were makin a fool la..
OMG! cant stand her la..keep POSTIN MY UGLY PICTURES!!
arghh..irritatin sehh.
hmm anw got t buy my puma shirt alr..
yeah so happy..hmm
went cp after tat..
then todae did nth onli watch vcd..
then got BIGG headache now!!!
omg!! hmm sians..tml havin math exam..arhh
siao liao LOLs sure cannot de..haiis
this midyr..i feel i did extremely bad de lols..
so sadded..hmm..
haiis dono la..
anw nth much t blog alr..byebye
gf > u the most pretty!!
brother > ty ytd. yes u made my day[:
dasao > yeah exam gonna end soon!!
jasmine > congratulation!! jiayou from now on uhh!!
sir > take care lots..
zixin > i MISS u
pam > good lols so sweet omg! i'm envy not jealous!
~~i think think of u~~
~~i dream dream of u~~
~~i wished wish of u~~
~~i see see of u~~

2007-05-03T05:34:00.000-07:00

hihi
well..todae had a v short day i guess
hmm went sch studyin for physics..
end up the physic ppr was a total shit..
LOLs so difficult can!
hmm anw..haiis nvm la
and ltr went off with kh
then called pam when i reach sunplaza as i dint wann go home tat earli
so went t meet her and von at cp
and had mac breakfast
then went t cut hair
i also..hmm haven told my mum abt it
hope she doesnt notice lols+.+"
haax..hmm then went mac study
hmm dint realli did much there..
was rather slpy lols.
haax..hmm then ltr went off first
then received mr tan's call..dnt teacher
LOLs whatever la..LOLs
hmm then came home use comp for a while
chatted with gf and ~~stupidass~~ and went off t bed
haha=X woke up arnd 6pm and went t wash up
and abt 7pm yeah!!
watch JIAYOU JINSHUN
wahaha..LOLs todae was so nice..i like the car part omg!!
the guy actually an xiao
haha=X so ke ai..hmm...feng le la wo..
OMG! haha=X
hmm well now in front of comp bloggin lols..and
gg off t do my maths and study for history le..
sians tml have rahmat and small grp coachin..
cant tahan..sians.=.+"
nvm math shall work hard..
found myself not knowin how t do alot of qns..
i'm so doom..!!!
alrite la..nth much t blog alr..byebye
gf > lols haha u told alr..and i'm not angry la..(:
~~stupidass~~ > ur sister love mi of cos=XX and i love her too!
likeness means i like u
wad on earth cant u understand
must i always say till so clear
and in the end let u reject mi

2007-05-02T06:06:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm did my ss test todae..
omG! none of the chapters i wanted came out..
i dint study abt diplomacy and deterrence and the industrial thing and foreign talent
tats so omg! lols.
but anw luckily i rmbed the foreign talent haha=X
but abit oni..>.<
so foregin talent save my day haha=X
hmm better than nth wad rite??
haha=X hmm well after sch went t sunplaza
with gf and serena but sister said she will be there
in the end she went home
lOLs so bad..>.<
hmm anw after tat went t ahma hse..
haha=X hmm chat with her then after tat went t slp
haha=X too tired la..cos ytd slp v late
LOLs eveytime i'm awake nobody msg mi
i slp so many ppl msg mi
wth! haha anw got ppla msg mi i happy alr=]]
haha=X hmm well so sians la..
anw so happy gotta watch JIAYOU JINSHUN
but todae one nv focus on her and the guy
so not v nice..sians..i wish i can watch ytd one
better bah..so must catch tml one..i think quite nice too![:
hmm..gotta study for physics alr..
hmm well did chat just now..
was elated=XX
haha..but i guess somethin's wrong...
nvm bah..
i wonder why..ppl like ppl
feelin will gett more each time ..
this time..
the feelin get less and less..
but still
ilhim
haha..crazy alr..shall not think too much la..
cos i wont wann think anymore..
shall be happy always.=]]
tats wad brother said..hmm but he happy becos of ppl de wad
hmm so swt lols=XX
haax..well not much things t be updated..
cos!!! i cant put pictures..i got tons of pictures t upload yet..
i cant..uhh so sad man..! omg!! hmm nvm shall wait
haha=X..lols.alrite la..nth better t write alr
so byebye..=]]
gf > i nv tot they would noe..its brave t tell them
yh mh > hmm shall chat nxt time
brother > u got the wrong idea..its tat u nv understand
sir > when can i meet up with u??!!
mabel > i wanna meet u?? when??
dasao > uhh i miss u so much!! i wann meet u!!
eleanor jessica > MISS UR alot!!
somehow..i noe tog is true
maybe u oni realli treatin mi as fren
simple and good fren

2007-05-01T06:19:00.000-07:00

hihi
lalalas just reached home..came t fetch my mum..
LOLs pam said tml got 2 ppr..
hist and ss..
so i brought hist there t study
yet von say tml oni got ss..
wow sian.i nv realli study ss LOLS
sians now i'm studyin omg! haa.
nvm..shall ~~burn midnite oil~~ alr..
JIAYOU JIAYOU
yeah..finally fever off mi
but headache still stickin on t mi..
haiis..sians..nvm la..don care alr.
LOLs.yeah no more bloggin..
hmm my uncle brought his family go see spiderman 3
OMG! i wanna go see la..
hell sian..hmm shall go see nxt time den[:
byebye
why am i oni one
not gettin anythin..
even for the hardest case..
at least somethin is gg on..
but not for mine.
i guessed wad i tot is alr happenin..
just forget it..

2007-04-30T05:09:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm well todae had chem and physic ppr
physic oni gotta ppr 1..
so well its was a v v terrible one la..
same for chem..
cannot make it alr..
sians..felt like cryin when i doin the ppr..
somemore i havin bigg headaches..
haiis..i dono i feel like i havin ~~fever~~ or so..
anw.nvm I"M STRONG!
hmm..after the ppr..
waited for mstham..our small grp coachin
LOLs..so waste of time can..arghh..
then after tat went t find pam and von..
they waitin for yahui
hmm..arnd 1pm yahui came lols and head t np
haha actually goin eat but in sch alr ate prata so not hungry
so went walkin arnd np..
finally settled in starbucks..
haha=X did alot of stuffs there..and i even help t decorate the cupps..
wahaha..
LOLs..siao alr la..=XX
hmm then went 925 eat tian ping..
haha pam cried lols..cos her popiak was too "la"
haha=X lols aiiyo..
hmm ltr went t see dogs..
omg!! so cute can..and we even stayed there so long..
cos we playin with one v v v cute dogg..
haha=X love them man..
hmm after tat..went t mac slack..
cos no wher t go..
and waited for huimin t come..
and after she came..abt few mins ltr..
yahui pam mi went off then..
we went home..
LOLs..had super bigg headache..arghh..
hmm..just watched JIAYOU JINSHUN!
omg! i love the show!!! i wanna see it!!
haha=X shall catch it again tml!!
haha alrite..nth much t blog alr..
byebye
gf > so long nv tok alr..*sobs
brother > don u think we hav drifted?
eleanor jess > i miss ur!!
dasao > i realli cant wait for exam t end..
sir > i did v badly *cries so srys
i'm sick..

2007-04-29T05:56:00.000-07:00

hihi
haiis suddenly felt so sians..
read esther blog..
and felt tat i realli missed those times i spent with them
since 2004
omg! and i missed every of the trainings and competition we been thr..
esp on nationals and not forgettin my first competition at ntu
hmm time passed realli fast..
well..i miss the school we were once closed t..
like st pats..st jos nyg ri rgs
hmm..all were frens till we stopped gg for arc tat often..
well..i wonder if they like their new sch new frens more than the old one??
hmm..hope bah..
maybe they alr forgotten mi le..
haiis still left in the old sch..
well..i miss them la!!! esp my zixin..
haiis..she hor so bad..forget mi alr..nv even contact mi..+.+"
*sad.. suddenly got the feelin t cry..
suan le.. i hate my life alrite!!!
ppl come ppl go..
i don wann!!! I LOVE THEM TOO MUCH ALR..
i just hate myself la..
pls take mi for good...
i don have everythin ppl has..
LOOK at mi..
haiis... i been thinkin too much and i noe it
i dono i just felt somehow i shouldnt be here..
hmm i donno..
tml chem and i'm here bloggin..
haiis..suan le..byebye
way back into love..
pls take me for good
since no one cares..

2007-04-28T23:00:00.000-07:00

hihi
PPLs haha..
i'm slacking at home la..
my family are all out.
even my maid..
and i'm oni one left.
haiis...so saddED
i superly boredED
haax..i 'm so sians.
i wanna watch JIAYOU JINSHUN
arghh..can anyone lend mi the cd or wadsoever
haiis..i felt so sad since ytd nite
i donno why..
as if i had lost something dear t mi..
haiis..i donno la..maybe everythin had changed
hmm..seriously i'm gonecase
weird* sians..
nobody online now..and i'm superly boredED
hmm..gonna study for chem man.!
i cannot afford t fail my chemistry de
cos i love it!
haha=X and of cos physics laa..
i alrd confrim get 0 for practical..so must work doubly hard for my physics theory..
yeah! i'm still happy tat i finished my dnt (dd)
haha=X now i can relax abit alr.
hmm comp down..donno wad the hell happen
so usin my bro comp..
I LOVE MY BLOGG SONG
haha=X its nice..don u think so?
hmm i also don care la..
haha=X anw is DASAO help mi de!
love her lots lots..
i wanna go out! i cant wait for exam t finish and go out play!
haiis..i'm so sad now..wish i can go t the beach!
i wanna shout!!!!
@#%$! arghh!!! sians i hate my life!!
suan le..i gotta no mood t blog..
so byebye=]
somehow.u are avoidin mi
i alrd did wad i can..
i being initiative enuff!

2007-04-28T01:44:00.000-07:00

hihi
had english ppr on thurs..
was kinda a quick on..but everythin seems alrite
but the ans i written abit too short
omg!!
well had mt ppr..
LOLs omg! super ~~dead~~ alr..
so hard..can i noe how t do the compre on the graduatin student and the professor??
omG! all usin own words so how am i gg t ans..
arhh so dead..
at 12pm i ended same as nico..
omg! i cant believe it..so i went on checkin and ended at 12.15pm
which then rested my heart..
haha so bad uhh :X
just hope everythin's goes rite..
sian! i cant upload my photo..
currently usin my bro's comp
LOLs..cos my comp sot sot alr..
sian nvm! shall work hard t poly and get myself a new laptop
haha=X hmm anw
ytd was yl birthday
wasnt able t update as i was out with them
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONGLIN 27/4/04
hmm srys boy i was too lazy t update ytd
anw went to vivo with
gf sister siyi samantha mh yh and bday boy
LOLs..hmm i dint realli wanted t go de
hmm i wasnt feelin well
i was havin headache since mornin and abit feverish when i slept
so hmm..anw arnd 6.15pm gf called mi
say girlgirl shookbee and serena wasnt gg
so asked mi t go
well i immediately went up and get chn
ltr i rushed out t take bus
LOLs waited so long
and met up alot of traffic lights..
sian..hmm then reached there arnd 7pm
srys let u guys waited 1hr
hmm and just nice the bus came when i reached.
so sat with lingz on the bus
then she suddenly ask mi..smth happen?
hmm..of cos not la..haha no tok means smth happen??
haha lingz u think too much!!
anw on the journey studied chemistry as gf brought the notes there
so took advantage of it..and i now rmbed the copper2sulphate preparation..
and also when reachin msged..
but was a short one..so sad.
hmm then reached there and waited for them for 1more hr..
and they reached..
they bought cap shirt pants belt for brother
wow full set interestin..
LOLs..hmm anw.felt so sian alr..
and ltr went foodcourt eat.
haha we were gg rnd and rnd there as foodrepublic has lots of yummies..haha donno wad t buy
then we ate finished then they start t eat
LOLs its super waste time..anw
we get the time t buy cakes for him..
and mi gf and sister went buy the lighter
hmm then met them at the open space..
and settled at a place and sang bdae song to yl
LOLs the candle are put in such a way tat is v hard for yl to get it out..
hmm..after tat they played with the cake lols..hmm..
and then went t take some pics and went off.
srys i wasnt even hyper.
i noe why..but just srys for makin everyone day down.
reached yishun at abt 12am alr..
and took cab home..and as soon as i reached home
went t chn and got to slp
haha=X so dirty omg! no choice la..was too tired..
and somemore todae had dnt lesson
and tell ur wad! i finished my dd..
omG! i super happy!! finally i feel smth haha=XX
yeah..met von in sch and waited till 9am b4 teacher came..
LOLs 4e3 was there too..
and ~~goat~~ and the rest sat behind us while waitin and made lots of noise haha=X
hmm..mi and von was readin then
yeah finally finished my book on true love and other lies..
now startin t read on son of fortune
yes! shall finish..and i shall wann read tuesday with morrie..
who have pls lend mi..i so dreadin for tat book!!
hmm and ltr went to eat with pam yahui von
LOLs..hmm had funn but ltr smth happen..
anw PAMELA WEE cheer up alrite
u lent mi ur shoulder and i shall lend u both..
but u hor so bad..say u donwan
u wann ahem* instead..
arhh!! i don like u la..so ~~BIASED~~ de..
haha anw don sad alr alrite!! must happy happy and more happy :DD
haha..then came back went for lesson..
LOLs teacher was teachin so damn fast..
now started another alr..
and yeah i noe abit of the aiwobiezhou alr.!!
yeah yeah..song so nice..omg! haha.
then ltr shall rest if not cont with my story book..or go study
LOLs most prob is read book bah..
too interestin alr yea!
so hmm..shall end for this entry la..nth much t blog..
byebye.:DD
gf > had a funn day =]
sister > pls don angry la..fren ma..+.+"
pamela wee > i wann u always be happy alrite gal
von yiling > i so lookin forward t vietnam trip but i'm scared!
well i tried t do wadever i can
why u keep so cold t mi..
its like i'm block by a mountain before i can reach u...

2007-04-25T06:37:00.000-07:00

improved photo..thx to the rain water :DD

hihi

hmm well todae

in the mornin was alr math

omg! was so so so tired

but better than choo shuin

LOLs again he slept

haha=X so damn funny la..

varsu was like aiiya normal routine ahah=X

haha LOLs..ltr recess went kh class

hmm srys yh and mh

LOLs..haiis i not feelin good la..

so pls don blame mi

hmm..anw straight after tat was hist

lols ms howe keep askin us do those mind maps stuffs

hmm i realli don understand why she cant be like mr ng

at least notes will help

hmm anw after hist was sc

LOLs haha they were teasing fed all the way

and todae nico was more than entertaining to the teacher

haha LOLs mr ong simply dint noe wad he meant haha=X

hmm then went lunch with kh

well..after tat came up saw yl so guai sittin there do his work

then gf told mi tat it was serena who help him de

OMG! i superly angry le la

wow lau brother..i alr so sadded alr

yet u made mi even worse by makin mi angry

argh!! sians..

anw v srys to Zfamily

i felt i been so far away from ur nowadays..

i think gf noe why

but however i tried t take

but..i dono why

maybe i just don realli had talks with yet

so maybe if there chance i will get along?

hmm..i donno..i also v srys for my attitude nowadays

hmm..anw after tat was mt

haax..had done zhuo wen

but lost it

wth!!

super angry la and lazy write one more LOLs.

sian la..hmm then followed

by takin back our mt ppr..

i got 36/70

hmm just passed

but haiis nvm ...

after tat went for dnt

LOLs mr lim was like sayin okok soon soon

then few hours past

he still haven release us

LOLs..sian..and it was raining like hell

LOLs and luckily

ms wong called cab and lobang us to northpoint
aint she good??

but i just don like her teachin method

i prefer cao and dai laoshi
hmm..anw thanks teacher shall return u money tml

hmm..went northpoint
and von went t buy her tings

after tat she went off

so mi and pam went t ljs eat

hmm then pam go call jet

and say i'm ..

OMG! wad the hell lols

i'm not and nv will i omg!

haha..anw sat there till 9pm

omg! got so many stuffs t do sure die one

LOLs..sians.

tml still have small grp coachin

wth! arghh sian don feel like gg for it alr

so sian la

still have t do math..

donno la..now tryin t do

but sian i lazy la

hmm suan le..

shall get on doin..

byebye peeps..

GOOD LUCK FOR MIDYR!! EVERYONE..JIAYOU!

somehow i just don get it

why u have t act blur

its like even blind could see it

but why is it..i alr

took thousands of steps.

yet u just cant step one towards mi..

i simply just hope...

2007-04-24T05:11:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm todae in the mornin had dnt lesson
haha mi and von were playin with the solder
makin names and all tat
LOLs..is baide start de so we copy haha=X
hmm anw was so engrossed in makin it..
and made whole lots of names..
gave t june eleanor jess pam(the hearts) brother him
LOLs..hmm was super nice
von make it nicer haha=X
hmm..and wasnt realli listenin t wad teacher teachin..
OPPs slack arhh!!
anw got t help sir ask abt his stardate
but out of stock so have t get from form teacher
hmm srys sir! shall buy it asap
hmm..then after tat
went t find yl actually wanntin t give him
got so excited alr..
but he hor went for english lesson cant call him alr
LOLs so gave in maths lesson
then his one..i asked yh give
LOLs he hor so lousy la..ass la..haha ps..
anw thx lols..
hmm he also dono its from mi.
hmm nvm la..better be a secret ahah+X
if he noe he might throw it??
haiis i donno la..
anw he dint received it
suan le alrite..hais..
hmm then durin physics lesson
yl and chooshuin was slpin all the way
as pam was standin behind
i called von t look
haha=X lols both are fallin alslp
haha=X so damn funny
i was laughin all the way
not becos teacher was humourous becos they make mi laugh
haha=X lols now u noe why i'm crazy
haha=X hmm anw after tat
we had our new south wale for physic
omg la its so hard
some of the syallbus also not yet learnt
haa..so hmm cannot blame
then after tat rushed off to vietnam briefin..
LOLs hmm got into a grp of ppl who noe all
but hor was kinda isolatin la
cos v weird..and they dono how t mix arnd
all the guys do was joke and not even serious
and yiling was on the brink of her anger le
hmm relax alrite!!
anw was so envy tat von grp was so cooperative
LOLs haah=X
hmm after tat went off w yahui von pam
went np t eat..
and had alot of funn in the journey LOLs
haha=X and also in the foodcourt wher we start our jokes and gossip
hmm..wasnt able t hyper much la
cos i was so fedup with yh la
arghh..nvm la srys anw
hmm when waitin for bus saw chooshuin
LOLs hmm anw also saw a malay man tryin t hop over and near fell
omg! he so dangerous can!!
hmm.. and also msged yl
LOLs he gg study w yl and yy
LOLs nv jio u gd lols
haha=X anw also nv ask mi earlier
i just gg home and u on ur way t study
=.=! craps haha=X opps*
hmm anw was glad i could chat a bit a day
LOLs..hmm yupps i alrd satisfied somehow
if oni u noe wad i mean..
but somehow i noe u wont want t noe it..

2007-04-23T06:05:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm well todae had a v v v BAD day
omg..todae was the blurest day i ever had lols
ohh ya ytd so called chat w brother till v late
so todae was superly slpy..
haiis..hmm forgot t bring p.e todae
hmm so immediately ask gf to lend mi pe
haiis anw todae also no pe.wth!
arghh..cos raining like hell
omg! the thunder was SUPER scary la omg!
hmm..anw say abt todae
i forget bring pe..and also the first two period
which was mt and english
but this was not the most mad thing..
the mad thing was..i put in the file containin mt and eng
but donno why i took it out again
so omg la..=.=!
haiis..then reach sch..i was panickin whole day
hais..but turn out i don nid for any lesson
mt teacher was ~~furious~~ todae
LOLs cos alot ppl nv hand in her work..
hmm so she was angry la
and there she goes scoldin us "yi tan lan ni"
lols useless soil..
hmm and laren was so sway la..
hp suddenly ring..LOLs he forget put silent..
lols and teacher confiscated it..
hmm then teacher dint teach..
and went off quickly instead..
hmm then laren went out chasin haha=X
hmm he said she was gg t cry alr LOLs
hmm.aiiya..LOLs wei le yi dian xiao shi er like tat
but we also got fault la..so v srys
hmm after tat went for our physics and chem practical
hmm i seriously DIE alr..
omg! i sure get 0 marks de lols
for physics i mean
cos i plot wrongly and the readings are all wrong
haiis..sure die..0marks liao
but luckily chem is ok..
cos i love chem so manage t noe lots of it..
but hor..i think alot of careless mistake..
haiix=.=!
then after tat..had our vip lesson
ms chin came in..and after vip lesson
almost t math lesson durin afternoon nap
suddenly rain..
omg! the thunder was like roarin so loudly..
and when musi wann close the window..suddenly got bigg flash scareD everyone..
hmm then the rain came floodin in..
omg! our notice board got wet
all our tables got wet
LOLS von said tats how cheap our holdin sch is..
haha=X hmm alrite la at least we had roof on our heads
well after tat we moved to class 1/5 for our maths lesson
haha lOls todae chooshuin and jet stand outside
LOLs cos they late wad..like wad laren and mehmeh did last time
haha=X so funny lols..
hmm then after math..went for pe
and then the teachers called out those who dint passed fully for nafpha
and release us
OMG! wasted my time t find pe shirt todae
hmm anw shall let todae end..
and don cont alr..must wake up alrite!!
anw after pe waited at canteen for mt teacher for oral
LOLs she then told us no more meetin alr
wth swa wo men..
suan le la..lols..
hmm then yl so good help mi take one dnt book bag
omg! my books my bagg so damn heavy la..
lOLs.
haa=X hmm so went off first
went t ah ma hse..
and blah blah blah and back here at home haha=X
hmm ohh ya kh called said abt baide and stuffs..haiis
dono la..wad can i do also
i not the cause of him now
so don ask mi..
hmm then now
slackin abit
but startin t do my folio and compo liao..
hmm currently chattin with shirong and pam..
LOLs stupidd yl don wan reply mi suan liao..+.+"
hmm..ok la nth much t blog shall update photos nxt time
my uploader smth wrong..>.<
hmm suan le..byebye
sir > srys dint get t ask will tell u asap
pam > pls relax la..its not like u noe him for the 1st time..=.=!
gf > thanks alot!!
if memories could be easily erased by an eraser quoted by yl
hmm of cos everythin would be so nice
no painful memories at least
well i'm so envy abt children havin t satified so easily
haiis..hmm if i was always one tat will be great
i dono.maybe theres limitin to wad i can do
its the alot of steps i'm takin
although i dono how far i can walk
but i will walk to the day..
everythin lies in u

2007-04-22T06:22:00.000-07:00

guess..

did it went in??

yeah was it a goal..could hardly see t ball

haha mh laugh till siao..

all waitin for yh t throw tat ball>.<

hihi

hmm ytd brother ask mi wann go study

he confrim w mi todae

so went out study with

minghui mehmeh(surprisingly t see him) afiq

haax..at bk

LOLs went out at 2.30pm

hmm dint realli did alot of things there

cos mehmeh and afiq was there doin so tricks..

which some of it are kinda lame..

haax=X but it was funn(:

hmm..and yonglin was there playin w minghui's handphone

LOLs..nvm then..

hmm did half of chinese compo

and half of english letter writin haa

lols everythin half half hah

hmm then sat there till abt 4pls..

and went off first while meh and afiq head t starbucks??

hmm not sure alr..

when outside bk

saw yahui and yiling and their fren..haha LOLs

guess wad yahui shouted when saw mi

"baba" omg la

pamela wee u so dead la omg!!

so went t find yonghui

play bball..!!

yeah haha
hmm first was paired up with brother

then paired up w minghui

LOLS..in the middle brother accidentally throw ball hit my head..

so pain la...so bad haha=X nvm la[:

hmm then play till abt 6pm then went up yh hse

LOLs went toilet comb hair and wash hands..omg t ball so dirty

hmm sweat alot..

haha not as much as them la>.<

also watch the "zhongyijiemu"

haha so funny..hmm

then my mum called say nid g back earli

LOLs so hurried them t go back hahaX=X

hmm then yl don wann acc us t walk back np

so haiis he so lazy la...>.<

hmm nvm..i stopped at gv t wait for my father while mh went interchange

LOLs..hmm

then went back bath and off i go again

haha went t have dinner and also my grannie hse

hmm anw haiis so sian la.

hmm homework all not yet finished..

hmm just said goodluck and nite..

haiis is it everythin we can say?

haiis i donno la..

its like i got the feelin'

u got urself another love..

maybe tats great for u

if realli have..then all e best

i nv snatch

i'm those who dislike competitions..so

i wont do anythin t get u..

gf > so good..hmmm so sweet

pam > u like apple or pear??

meifu > u realli lousy man..i love the picss..

brother > yeah have nice day w u mh yh[[=

2007-04-21T06:44:00.000-07:00

haha alrite lets take pics!:DD
haha went subway t eat
yeah the food was super nice
as jess jie shao..
omg shall go try out yeah..=]]

toliet..
yeah we went t the boys toliet=XX
haha no la..this was in the gals toilet can u believe it??

she take mi i take her=XX

this is at bishan

junction 8 de courts??

orh sell tv de la..

wow so cool give children play..

the smiley bowl

in safra bowlin..omg! i wann it!!

eleanor gave mi this mnmsXDD

blue and black..haah=X

actually brown la :D

the views in bishan library

mi and jess kept takin pictures like we are from an alien country

omg! haha=X cool rite

so bigg..like hse..omg! so nice=X

had super nice day..=]]

but still alot of pics with jess

haiis tat gal..haiis donno how to upload photo..>.<

well i miss u :DD

2007-04-21T03:47:00.000-07:00

hihi
todae earli mornin abt 10.30am went t meet jess
haha we goin bishan shoppp
LOLs..hmm wow so tired liao.
anw at bishan we dint went eat breakfast straight away
so went round findin for wad we wann
jess unfortunately dint get t buy her long necklace..
anw first went t buy the heart..
got green colour for both tries.
omg! sians.hmm nvm givin my cousin one haha=X
anw ltr went find for cloths..
haiiis..
all so ex..donno wad t buy
then walk walk
went action city
omG! alot of cool stuffs
i wish i could buy all..
hmm nvm..
then went t buy my pacifier
yeah!! blue and green..
cool man!!
hmm..then went t have our breakfast finally which was arnd 12plus alr haha=X
hmm then after tat we were takin pics of the subway stuffs haha so funny la
then we cont our walk..
went up and downn..
haha we like two idiots.cos keep gg the wrong direction..haha=X
then went minitoons..
yeah bought my blue hair band..
LOLs..and boxs(:
hmm..well everytime i go out with jess
guess wad we will always buy w/o faill
earrings..>.<LOLs bought earring again..
this time i nv wear out..so bought two
she also bought two haha=X
and b4 we got t safra
at the mrt station we kept talkin and dint even took note of the train we got in
but luckily we managed t get in the CORRECT one ahah=X
so baichi rite=X
keep changin it even after we got to safra
haha=X
lols..hmm anw guojie hurried us back..
so went t buy and went back t safra
lols..went t northpoint
help jiaqi buy his prepaid card..so ma fan
went both 711 also cant find..
and so went starhub shop and buy
=.=! mafan rite
anw at bk saw yh and mh
haax..
LOLs hmm then hurried t safra
and mi and jess then decided not t train alr..
cos v tired..LOLs haha=X anw none of the coaches are there
LOLs..hmm ohh ya coach say abt tat
rmbed ytd..i gave her attitude
LOLs..not i wann de is u made mi de
~~so wann scold mi come la..~~
~~don act till so bigg i don give a damn..~~
ask mi give up on my fieldtrip..LOLs wth~
and also take time off from my dnt..
hey wad if i dint score for it
are u gg to pay for the consequences..
LOLs.pls la..think abt others..don think oni for urself..
anw i don give a damn..
hmm ytd on my way t safra with them..
i saw him..omg!
was so happy la..they said i blushed..omg!
hmm well was realli realli happy![:
hmm the saw spencer
jess anyhow shock haha=X
make a fool oni=.=!
hmm..then reach safra..
saw mtlkt
haiis.firstly was his father..i was like omg..
haiis dint expect t see him..
anw saw alr so wad can i do..
haiis i just felt tat t ....... still was there
but i can oni say i hate him
haiis..donno la.alrite
anw i don .... him anymore so..no words t descibe it.(:
hmm then his father said hello t mi..haha LOLs
and mi and jess sat down and assemble the box..
and when i took the ting out and wann t take photo of it
then i found out tat it was a skull shape
wth!!! arhh why dint anyone tell mi
mi and jess also dint notice LOLs.
realli two idiots..
uhh i so sad can!!!
anw haiis..nvm
went toliet and we were superly crazy there
took alot of photos..but usin jess phone
so i don think the photos will ever be uploaded..
so ahah=X its v v v funn
hmm..then waited for them t shoot
and they ask mi t help them w the marks so..
hmm anw jiaqi got higher than guojie.
he realli showed bigg improvement and i'm v impressed..
then i was gonna late for my lesson
so i asked my father come bring mi back
v srys to ur..i went off earli!!
hmm anw i had v v funn day except for the ting.
spoil my mood man..!!
haa alrite
gg cc now..cos my cousin n family went on cruise like i said earlier on..
so i nid help my mother w the shop
LOLs..hmm tml gotta do revision alr..
jiayou!! must concentrate..!!!
ok nth t blog alr..byebye(:
meifu > haha funn day shall go bishan often!!(:
yh > how how!! i'm so da yi omG!!
its like haiis i donno la
i'm just confuse
will i ever have t chances?

2007-04-19T05:18:00.000-07:00

hihi
well todae had ms in the mornin..
cos hmm shall not say it
suan le alrite
hmm also had quite a great time in the afternoon
haha the last english lesson we had grp work
LOLs..hmm our grp consist of von pam siva baide henry youliang yiping laren jetjet
haha of cos and mi=XX
hmm our grp keep shootin shirong's grp haha LOLs
hmm playin debatin..
guess laren and baide can go for tat competition uhh
they so good lols..haha=X
hmm
then stayed back for dnt
wow stayed till the sch close lols
sians..hmm but at least alot is done..but NID to change omg! wth!
hmm nvm at least i got a better start
and all changin t arcylic..
omG! must make it v v nice
cos its all transparent...
yeah hmm must be super nice de..
hope nth goes wrong and it must work!!
hmm sians nxt week midyr le
and can u believe i'm still slackin
like nobody business
wow sians..
haiis..
i so pissed la..
ppl sayin mi xiaoqi and another one
wth!!
i don like alrite
yes i admit i'm jealous becos
i lost a close fren
suan le..
i shouldnt be..cos its not meant t be
hmm suan le la
anw i'm so tired now..
pls la..dnt..omg! still have lots t change
somemore i have lots t catch up!!
haiis why shirong have t say easy
omg! make mi more stress omg!
now i noe how far i am from others..
omG! omg!
haiis omg! i so sadd..
well..was tokin t shirong yonghui pam n him
yeah he gg t help mi..
lOL..
well anw tml i gg safra haiis
hm nvm shall go thr this once more..
last yr!! and tog i shoot for 4yrs.
lols its borin la..
every yr 2nd..
omg!sians when can i get 1st??
hmm anw sat have dnt..
peeps rmb hor!!!
i not gg got cca and mrlim allow..
so hmm happy doin then;DD
hmm..sians.
well goin buy the thing
so how much??
budget 30??
wow so much can..
hmm my present i also don think got so much
aiya don no la..
see first..anw so many peeps givin wad..
got mi no mi make no difference..
LOLs..haiis..
hmm anw happy ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO MY COUSIN,MEILIN
hmm she gg cruise
WOW so good la..omg! xiao shushu give de..
hmm goin w her shuai shuai cousin..
omg!! so envy..=XX
hmm nvm have funn alrite:DD
hmm have funn chattin
haiis wish i noe wads everythin thinkin..
hmm..suan le..omg i now super tired..also donno wad i bloggin haha=X
hmm..sians yeah will work hard de
hope someday shall win shirong!!
omg he say whatevr thing also make mi so jealous..
shirong! u watch out!! arhh i wann be so smart like him omg!!
teach mi teach mi why u so smart
but stop askin mi this weird qns can..
I DON I DON and i mean it!
arghh,..sians
hmm nvm shall clear all my doubts nxt week
no more slackin alr..
wanna get top 60 shall work extra hard!!
hmm nvm i shall make action not talk!!
haax..alrite la
i super tired le..
so hmm byebye ppl
shall not say anythin much
tats wad frens are for??
hmm i guess its over?

2007-04-18T03:15:00.000-07:00

hihi
hmm todae meet meifu in the mornin..
hmm but dint get to meet them
cos we were late??
aiiya donno la..cos gj say if got see then go if no see then go ourselves lols
well guess we missed the bus la..
LOLs hmm nvm..
anw say alr..sat gg bishan yeahs.!!
haax.hmm then went sch did chinese..
LOLs no nid hand up also..
sians i was superly tired la..
and i donno why
i tot i slept earlier but hmm...
then first period physic..
a lil sians.
but ok la..the teacher still...entertaining himself=XX
haha=X lols..after recess is chem
hmm this is the part i v v v tired..
omg! but luckily teacher end lesson 10mins earlier..
so was slpin for 10mins..
then english
omg! we still at the same old passage la..
revielle..omG! hmm but luckily it endds today haha=X
lol..then after recess also english
followed by mt
haha=X todae v v funn
cos teacher gave us compre test first
but tat was bored la
then follow by the nxt compo topic..
and she said abt the korean who killed 33 ppl in university
and ask us to discuss abt tat
then she said till "ren za"
haha then say "lang fei kong qi"
LOLs bth add is " lang fei kong qi de ren za"
haha nice rite..
was irritatin pam with this haha
anw receive msg from mabel earli this mornin..
OMG! MABEL WELCOME BACK!
hope u had a funn trip there:DD
haax..finally miss her alot..
hmm when can meet uhh?? maybe nxt week?
if not have t wait till after midyr??
srys timetable is v packed now
hmm will try t meet u de..
ohh ya..and saw ah hiang
she came back sch with kritika
LOLs..hmm donno how to spell la..
anw hmm..dono how i feelin now
i also v confuse
but i hope my tots wont be true la
i donwan history t repeat
even if its repeat let her be mi
haiis..i donno alrite
i realli dono..
anw so happy todae got home so earli haha..
now not even 6.30pm ok
haha=X hmm alrite la
nth much t blog alr..
so byebye=]]
gf > friday shall go w ure if i'm free=]
yuanyu > shall be my new girlgirlXDD
brother > still don regard mi as brother ):
yh > u gettin lamer >.<
pam > lang fei kong qi de ren za :P
sister > whee i love u much=XX
Dardar > get well soon!!
mabel > welcome back!!
somehow..u just don get wad i mean..
i alr tried every step i can.
but u dint even move

2007-04-17T05:23:00.000-07:00

yoyo guess who are these ppl
haha its baide and ah ben=XX
haha they playin in dnt lesson after school haha=X
funny rite..play till so hell haha=]]
yeah guess wad is this
haha its taken in the lift..which alot got it rite
how come arhh..v ming xian mehh??
hey this is pic in the mornin..
oppsite sch..but hor..its nicer but my phone too lousy..
so dint got the nice view..>.< haha="X" style="color:#000000;"> XH jiayoujiayou haha=X
saw kj on the way back class
haha he hor..say wad ehh xh treat mi eat sakae lehh
haha=X lols waiting for u treat mi too!=XX
actually gg for arc todae..
but nid to finish material list
so have to stay back for dnt
haha..hmm not bad also..
was there zibi-ing lols..
and shammer farhan make a fooll
lols irritate mi oni haha=X
hmm and i managed to ....
make mi so happy..
but too bad its for a while..
but nvm..anw good luck to u=]]
jiayoujiayou too![:
hmm then the lesson got so late n mrlim wasnt back..
so baide n jet decided to play..
haha LOLs play with chair broom and alot of stuffss..
haha mi and pam were thinkin wad if just nice teacher popped in like he did in the beginnin
LOLs the broom might hit him??
haax..donno..but ltr
teacher did came in..but they were not doin..cos both were aimin at each other
haha=X so funn can lols
hmm then teacher tok to us till 7pm
LOLs its v late.and i was abt to die alr..
so tired can..omg!
hmm tml not gg taf..gf is sick
hmm..why everyone sick uhh??
i just ok nia haha=X
hmm..don ever fall sick alrite..
~~i cant bear u to be sick~~..
hmm..anw was kinda a v weird day
i suddenly got so hyper
then nxt min i can be ~~emo~~ le
haiis..donno wad happenin to mi too
anw brother birthday comin..
hmm guess i noe wad to buy le
but brother u must also buy for mi hor..=]]
hmm like nth to blog le..
so byebye=]]
dasao > we shall meet after my midyr..to vivo=]]
brother > u finally said byebye brother=]]
gf > take care don fall sick le rest well=]
eleanor n jess > srys i dint make t safra as i have dnt
meifu > sat go out..alrite=XX w G.J n maybe Q?
june > rest well
i just cherish each moment which link mi t u

2007-04-16T06:15:00.000-07:00

anw this is taken when i was in sec 2..
yeah my teammates..lols we always gotten 2nd..
but better than nth..
seriously i missed it..i miss the challenges..
the motivation from coaches..
haiis but everythin changes so quickly
but i hope arc will still carry on as a team.
lets strive hard n excel alrite=]]

yupps..my fav number..
actually is oni 2 la..but anw 1 also not bad..
hmm haha=X well i dint get to upload my juniors pic..cos i don have any in my comp..
ohh gosh..haha will upload if i have any nxt time..=]]
well enuff of the pictures..
lets tok abt todae..
haiis gotten my compo..
shit la..still the same..23..
omg! why keep gettin the same failin mark..
omg! i so doom la..if i cont to keep slackin all the way..
omG! no way man..
anw todae don have sec 1 traininn
donno why cancel also..brought so much trouble to us..
nvm then haha=X
anw todae nth much happen la..at least not a v sad day can le..
haha alrite la nth much to blog le..byebye
pam > is it true?? omg! i dono??
mabel > when will u be back omg! i missing u now
yahui > i miss u lots <33s
eleanor > since u happy le..so always smile alrite anythin just say if u feel comfortable=]]
meifu > hearts u lots la don angry lehh=XX
anw even if its meant for mi..
i noe smth like this would happen
even if its not meant for mi
just take it tat he has another girl in mind..

2007-04-16T06:10:00.000-07:00

mi n my cousy..yeah..hmm smth weird w the pic..omg!

jasmine n mi..wow this is far too long ago haha=XX

this is taken in the bus..

haha after our bottle tree park??

hmm went eat prata haha=XX

brother don ike this pic..but i guess i love it alot=]]

gf brother mi yonghui

2007-04-16T05:55:00.000-07:00

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some pictures i can hardly upload...
its a v long ago pictures=X
<kah huay n mi ="]]

seriously i miss the times=]]

yahui mabel pamela yvonne

2007-04-16T05:48:00.000-07:00

yeah this is my class at sentosa..hmm wantin to put it up in my profile but haiis i donno how..so haha=X this my class=]]