hihi
had great day w jess eleanor.!
finally an outing which we doesnt feel boreD.
lols. anw jess goin hk and zhuhai tml!
have a safe and wonderful trip!:D
i been wondering am i pathetic?`failure. i noe in wad can alr.`even a dinner, my mum scolded me for being lazy go buy. so diff t even help me buy?`not being treated fairly, both in family n frens?`i wanted ppl t console me. i called yet i dint say wad is it abt and hung up.`i couldnt even find a job. when everybody does.`he dint even reply.`i wanted t tell fren t tell him,don throw away before he even reads it.isnt it the most pathetic scene.having t give and ask not t throw?if u get wad i mean u will feel.anw who cares lols.i been thinkin do i deserve all this pain?maybe i do.am i desperate? no i don.am i pathetic? yes maybe i do.am i nuts? yes abt u i guess.am i a loner? yes t a certain extent.am i stupid? yes whatever i do.am i extra? yes maybe i always do.am i in depression? yes/no hmm i also dono.am i crazy? ppl may think so.am i emotional? yupps i can say.am i nobody wans? ya can see.yupps im pathetic.cant even find someone t say to.anw nobody would even wan hear me say all this uh..i jus wanted him t treat me as a fren.so t a certain extent i still get t talk t him.but things isnt gg this way.he ignores. ya.i always have t wait and wait for hours for days just for him t reply.but he dint.but the last thing i nid t do. i guess i have gave him.its matter when he gets it.if he dint reply or ignores.i shall end everythin.i have given him back all our memories.maybe word i may say. of cos i wont forget.but at least i will try t stay away.i noe. i just hated my life.i love smiles but i don get t smile everyday.tears become part of my daily life.maybe raindrops suits me more.mood: sad:(
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