hihi
back on post!
so long nv blog. something happened.
was superly sad.
my father side grannie just passed away.
family went for funeral for 5days. and stayed there..
was sad. was shock.
unexpected but hais.
maybe its gd for her.
end her pain of gg thr the medication.
hope she lives well up there.
i will put her in my <3 just like i put my grandfathers..
anw i just wish someone was there t lend me a shoulder.
but there was none.
but i was happy t get t be closer t all my cousins!:D
hais.
now sister girlgirl both found their love.
and more comin up. hmm..
left me? hais..

went out w von pam ytd. went sheraton. but too late le. went eat sakae haha=X met desmond fahdli and a guy. but dint eat tog.haax.
went newton w yonglin nico yonghui.
interview at sheraton.start work on friday.
srys let ur wait for so long. apologetic.

i miss u!
miss u.
but hais i noe if u got wad i gave u now.
u will ignore me for the rest of my life.
im afraid.
u dint give any replies.
im afraid.
u will ignore me.
im afraid.
to even msg u.
wad shld i do really?
fren once asked.
is it worth waitin?
he wait so i shld wait too?
will he even care?
why not give other chance when there is?
why i cant let go?
i miss him. really.
i wanna see him. i wanna hear his voice.
but i noe it wont be realistic for me.
im helpless..
so wad even got help.
he wont care?
stupid monkey.
makin my life miserable.
starmoncrapkeyfish.
i miss ur chats.
entertainer.
i miss our laughs.
i just like long leg u!
can u at least reply?? pls.
csr.

mood:average:/

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hihi
hmm went out w june todae.
went town walk walk.
went t see the game plan.
well its was so COOL!
and i nearly cried.
cos its so touchin in the end,
anw went isetan bought a nice tubetop at mango.
omg! tat super ex. but its nice..
anw maybe gg work le! i so happy!
hope it doesn go bad on me.
hais.cant wait t start work man!
anw saw laren.
sellin toys haha he went t dye his hair.
hmm don look nice on him but hmm long time no see le.
but nth t tok hais.
anw BASHA msg me! i super happy.
mus meh an june called me. i so so happy!
so many ppl Rmb me! i love them!
wow if we can meet up tat will be even better! but
everyone is so busy w their work. so sad.
hais im not workin though
but im rotting at home
tats super sian de lols. hais. who can understand my pain...
haax craps man..
anw chatted w xiuqi.
nv tot i got the courage t tok t her.
but was happy t tok. hmm
really miss each and everyone of them!!
5N3,z', 2006 batch,juniors,family!

hmm..
imh
dono why.
everythin i do like related t him..
so fan nao.
omg. hmm i wish i can return
every pieces of memories t him..
but i just cant.
dono why.
hais lets nature take its place ba...

mood: average. [headache]
imh.
i wish find job! go out/play! nv rot at home!=.=

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hihi
had great day w jess eleanor.!
finally an outing which we doesnt feel boreD.
lols. anw jess goin hk and zhuhai tml!
have a safe and wonderful trip!:D

i been wondering am i pathetic?
`failure. i noe in wad can alr.
`even a dinner, my mum scolded me for being lazy go buy. so diff t even help me buy?
`not being treated fairly, both in family n frens?
`i wanted ppl t console me. i called yet i dint say wad is it abt and hung up.
`i couldnt even find a job. when everybody does.
`he dint even reply.
`i wanted t tell fren t tell him,don throw away before he even reads it.
isnt it the most pathetic scene.
having t give and ask not t throw?
if u get wad i mean u will feel.
anw who cares lols.
i been thinkin do i deserve all this pain?
maybe i do.
am i desperate? no i don.
am i pathetic? yes maybe i do.
am i nuts? yes abt u i guess.
am i a loner? yes t a certain extent.
am i stupid? yes whatever i do.
am i extra? yes maybe i always do.
am i in depression? yes/no hmm i also dono.
am i crazy? ppl may think so.
am i emotional? yupps i can say.
am i nobody wans? ya can see.
yupps im pathetic.
cant even find someone t say to.
anw nobody would even wan hear me say all this uh..
i jus wanted him t treat me as a fren.
so t a certain extent i still get t talk t him.
but things isnt gg this way.
he ignores. ya.
i always have t wait and wait for hours for days just for him t reply.
but he dint.
but the last thing i nid t do. i guess i have gave him.
its matter when he gets it.
if he dint reply or ignores.
i shall end everythin.i have given him back all our memories.
maybe word i may say. of cos i wont forget.
but at least i will try t stay away.
i noe. i just hated my life.
i love smiles but i don get t smile everyday.
tears become part of my daily life.
maybe raindrops suits me more.

mood: sad:(

Labels: i wish there will be rainbow.

hihi
ytd 61107 went out w mf lj serena lingz sb mh yh.
hmm went kbox.
dint go w pam n von they all..
i'm so srys.
hmm..but i had funn time w gf they all ba.
thanks.

NITEMAREs.
shall not say much about it.
everythin sucks.

i just wish somebody can be by my side.
now. nobody.
well nvm.

mood: sad:'(
can u pls don ignore me?

Labels: smckf:)