10/07/07
worst day of my life..
sucks can! hmm..had my o's mt oral today..
oh my goodness la..
it was so damn badly done..
i actually really got no feel and kept jerking when i reading the passage..
and i actually mis-intepreted one of the questions..
wow siao that really sucks can!
hmm already so sad le..
in the afternoon before going for oral..
sorry pamela..i'm sorry i will try to get another i promise.
anyway got upset about another thing also
and of cause on my oral
sarks really..
i don't know if i get to pass anot..
AHHH i so afraid can..
couldn't help myself..burst out after that..
hmm anyway was ok already..
LOLS went to have dinner with jetteck pamela
lols don't you think i'm the brightest light bulb ever?
well i myself think so can.
hmm aiiya i also don't know i just felt superly disappointed in myself..
although everyone says i put in effort can already..
but wads the point of putting in when you don't give out?
haiis stupid right..why must i be nervous.
shitter! what happen to me la..
arghh! hmmm anyway i just felt i had no face to faced ms wong again..
sorry teacher..sorry..
no mood to do anything..
somemore i'm superly angry about something..
everything sucks can..why must things all happened at the same time..
i don't even know how to settle it la.
i really don't yet nobody was able to give me advice..
everyone says nvm don't care..
but i really don't know la..haiis..
suan le..i shall solve everythin myself.
kao wo bah!!!
hmm aiiya i now really no mood to do the stuffs already..
but i really want to give 010 and fiq by this week
how wth...arhhh!
aiiiya say already..i'm so fan-up with my emotions and things irritating me..
i don't know how to take everything by myself also..
wth..
suan le..let everythin be it..zou yi bu suan yi bu ba
but i'm sure my friend won't even bother about it cause they are my friends they won't because of stupid thing and leave me alone..
i mean guys like baide jet brother and many more
NOT LIKE YOU
ok nothing much to blog le byebye ppl..
tears are always in my eyes
why must you always be the one
helping me to get back to my usual state..
i just don't understand..

Labels: is this wad i get? is everythin needed t be like this?why are u so ever selfish.

hihi
todae monday alr so damn fast rite..>.<
hmm well tok abt ytd..
went study w damn lots of ppl..
but actually at first is oni me sr and yl
well ltr in the mornin june ask me wann go study so i asked her along..
hmm then when we got there pam called
say she not gg ah ma hse alr..
she and yp wanna come join..
so ok lols..
while waitin june say musi and baide wanna come too
omg lols..anw ok lols they came..
hmm but yp put aeroplane but in the end jet came..
lols total got 8ppl lols
when jet came brian yy kb came too..
lols damn lots of ppl rite
oni study ma..nid so many...
zhao zhi dao jiu sui ye don call le lols
study from 12pm till 7pm..sat at sunplaze mac..
anw..ppl ms in the middle till nite can..
in the end kinda knew but nvm..
well todae was kinda crazy in class la..they super funny can..
wad laugh laugh lols..but most funn topic on todae is
when ur two side armpit is itchy how are u gg t scratch it..
haha cos varsu made a v funny action todae
her arm v itchy ma lols.and scatch in class so openly can..
haha history lesson we were discussin lols.=X
hmm..anw after sch went eat w pam jet baide yp..
actually wana go watch w brother they all de..
lols i lazy go home change la..
v srys..anw shall catch a movie nxt time w u..and u must treat i don care!
haha..lols.hmm after dinner baide went play bball and pamyp jet acc me t cp..
yp went off first then jet and pam send me till me mum shop lols..
haiis pam..don bi wo la..
i realli realli cmi lols..and i realli don like ppl bi me..
so don pls..
anw the thing alr thrown off..
not me wor..is my mum..
lols aiiya..donno la..ms till siao but i realli dint think too much
oni angry abt it..
hmm don always assume i realli thought too much cos i realli dint
realli..i dint give a sec tot on throwin it into the dustbin..
so it could prove i realli dint wad..lols..
anw thanks alot to pam and jet for acc me..
hmm sometimes i just wish t be alone..
but i'm still glad ur w me..
hmm anw tml mt o's oral lehh!
wth sure die one can..omg omg
i so scare la..
now my emotions all mixed together alr..
becos i'm sad yet i'm scare
hmm well sad for wad lols.
aiiya not sad la i don like why sad lols
serious..hmm oni angry la..
srys for nowadays de ms..dint wan de..but i will change..
ur too don always ms..
hmm vonn..u todae super quiet lols..
don think u see smiling pasta then sweet inside..must talk can..
hmm somethin happeneD? tell me bah haha..
vonnie..don stress or sad or wad..must be happy!
same to p wee and the rest..must always stay happy la!
crazy when u can lols like i in class also donno wad i doin sometimes..
anw i got sakinah varsu and june t laugh w me..
so hmm must entertain urself w ppl beside u too!
we being separated just nice each got ppl in btwn lols teacher purposely de..
but nvm i shall entertain ur if ur bored..so tell me haha
giving ur the lamest jokes i guess=XX haha
well todae had quite a nice day..
hope tml can go off earli..wanna go alot of places..or stay at home?
hmm shall see lols..=]]
ok byebye ppl..take care^^
thanks for all the encouraging things..
realli appreciated..
well guess we better off w frens bah

Labels: i don dare t like..realli not again..

hihi
PAMELA WEE
srys for all the ms suddenly..
hmm srys srys
wont le nxt time..
i'm elated by msgin..maybe i askin for more..
hmm but i wont..
anw tml is 070707 hmm hope u have a great day w him[:
hmm yeah finally gave out the things..
still left w his,010,eleanor,jess and smckf
hmm hard t give lehh..
well nvm shall give them by nxt week..
as i told 010 [:
hmm nowadays quite talkative in class
even sakinah beside me also become so talkative lols haha
me sakinah varsu and sometimes june siao alr haha
hmm well great time sitting w them :DD
haax..anw tml gg sch la
wow lau sian..hmm no nid de but haiis nvm..
hmm got oral practice.uhh i so scare omg!!
well anw nvm shall say wadever i can lols..sometimes donno how t intepret then die le..
hmm tml gg out w jess hy and eleanor..
donno wher but hope somewher funn!!
haha...well 070707 lehh sure must take NEO!!
haiis cant take it w pam and von..
but hope they have funn too!!
hmm..alrite lols.haha nth better t add le..
eh,got! i finally finished my production schedule!
but still got evaluation..
lols..hmm hope tml will be a funnn and HAPPY day for me..
hope everythin goes well..esp in the afternoon bah!
hmm alrite then blog nxt time cya![:
each day pass u no longer stand still in me..
i begin t wonder why..

Labels: don sian me fan...i'm scare la

hihi
yeah ytd finish my dnt..
hopin t finish english todae.
sians now at uncles workplace w my bro
hope i can go home soon do my homework..
well uncle ask his fren help me buy dunhill perfume..
hmm scare not the same lehh..
haiis nvm..
anw i also donno wad t do now so use this time t blog abit..
haha slack!
PM![:
everytime when i needed someone
nobody was there for me..
i envied those who had ppl t care and concern..
although sometimes i had those
yet when i realli needed someone
nobody knew..
i don like expressing it out
adding t ppl's agony
i do like helpin ppl w their personal problems..
and i felt elated by it..
its great u noe..helpin ppl
seeing smiles on their faces
my fren once told me..
if u cant help urself how are u goin t help ppl
my answer t tat is..
helping ppl is equal t helping myself..
yet another qns asked
if u not happy
how u goin help ur fren t be happy
this...i just have t say
i will make my fren happy no matter wad
i love them..
sometimes i don understand myself too..
becos certain matters make me v confuse..
sometimes i smiled..but yet i feel its fake..
but somehow i will bring out t best t ppl
tats wad i will do..
so its great having frens around who will smile w me..
i don like ppl t be sad..
tats why i don like my own frens t be sad..
tats the least i can wish for..
not for ppl t be concern abt my feelings but
ppl t take care of themselves..
smiling always :DD
i always sad becos of my appearance and found it t be the thing tat make me isolating
some ppl like t say them selve
yet t me..they are perfect or great alr..
hmm..donno la..maybe i do care abt my own appearance..\
i just want t smile my best yet i donno when..
well...
tats all i have t say...
don take it realli t heart la..
i crapping around oni..[:
byebye..
maybe few more tries..
and u out of my heart...
i want t forget u..

Labels: no..don dare..no confdent..confrimed no chance..