Tuesday, October 31, 2006
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3:30 AM
hmm headache..nxt time then blog.take care ppl..cya arnd.nites.sweet dreams.smile always=)
Friday, October 27, 2006
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6:28 AM
hmm..well todae came back veri earli..cos nth to do..just type few words file sm paper and ok off..haax..hmm..well gotta my pay alr..as usual i gave my mum 400..haiis.i so ke lian..i left with 100..cant spend alr..still have to treat pam..LOL..hmm..nvm tat is i owe her de..well tml maybe meetin mabel in the nite..and maybe goin out with musi june haritz ah dai and pam tml..haiis..wonder i should go anot..cos veri weird somemore now the two so close alr..like veri extra..felt so bad..hmm nvm..guess my las decision should be a NO?hmm..lets don talk abt thiswell..hmm so sian at home..yea.i made some decisions and i not gonna chn it..i wan made changES in my life..first i will wan to forget everythin..and i alr delete alot of things in my mind..for sure i wont wan to think back on those things..well since i made up my mind..i will wan to stick to it..i wont wan to carry on with the old thinkin and keep hurtin my self with painful memories.so yup..i guess wad i did is ryte bah..and i guess i can life on..and not regrettin abt the deletin of memories aft tat..=)smile happily is wad i should do now.isnt it.hmm i donno..smtimes i just felt tat smthin still makes mi feel bad..and i donno what and how to get rid of it..well..guess i have to just figure out myself slowly bah..hmm..time can chn the whole thing isnt it..so lets use time to heal my wounds bah..things get better once u let go and ignore it..so i guess everythin would be fine aft sometime bah..wait for my good news.=Xheex..well ppl..nth to blog alr..so nites..sweet dreamstake caresmile always=)
Thursday, October 26, 2006
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6:56 AM
hmm..well just came back from chalet this mornin..as i have no key to hse and none of my bros are at home i went to my grandma hse..slept the whole day..omg!haha..hmm was so tired luhs..cannot take it..hmm well the chalet was so nice..quite luhs..hmm torn with yixin till mornin..at least i still get to sleep some mins..she dint even slp..pro..hmm..well we reach the chalet abt 2.30pm ytd..and met the uncle samuel and checked in..we ltr rest and went to cheers to buy our bbq stuffs..we tot of buyin ahem..but then cannot..so ask uncle help us buy..well we bought alot of stuffs..and in the end we cant finish..hmm..well..ltr when we were payin for our stuffs..i saw our ytss de peeps..sally kj and so on..omg! was the first reaction i made..i was so sian diao when i noe they were same scs and just the chalet nxt to us..we were so ps..back there we have to ask them to help us set up fire..hmm..we bbq till veri late cos sk and anne veri late come..hmm..kj they all have not much food..wanted to give some but ml say anne they all eat alot..felt so bad..i'm so srys..hmm..well after bbq..we went in and chat..we make alot of videos..haha..we all laugh till we have sore throat..omg! luhs..but it was funn..hmm ltr i went nxt door..tat is the three guys onli as the gals went home alr..hmm went to borrow guitar..haha they brought then we play for a while and return back..hmm ltr knock on nxt door to borrow cards to play..well..ltr i ask them join us..haha kj and dan join and the onli one left was slpin..haha..ltr we played till 3am..smwher there the guys went back slp..cos tml they wan go sch..hmm so bad..haiis nvm..then ltr we still gotta drinks left..our toliet door gonna break..cos we use it to open alot of drinks..so i went nxt door to borrow the toliet door..haha..then the one guy who is slpin woke up..kj and dan bluff him say he slp wrong side..why slp gals room..haha..so funny and he actually blur blur believe..well..aft we all went back our side and continue with our game..hmm..ltr anne ml sk wan slp so mi and yixin..went to walk arnd..so sian.we stayed up the whole nite..hmm ltr in the mornin..all were inside and i went out..sit..kj they all came out too as they were leavin..gave us a bottle of coke and expect us to bring back..omg! ure cannot finish..so heavy still ask us take..==hmm then i faster went in and took the cards and gave it back to them..bade farewellhmm we were also goin off alr..aft wash up we went to take bus and took mrt to tampines and took 969..well quite a long trip..everyone was exhausted..and went home fast to slp..hmm..well i guess meetin them at the chalet wasnt tat bad bah..=)tml mabel say she meetin pam to pizza..ask mi along..i not veri sure lehh..c first bah..nvm pam not able to go alr..maybe goin on sat..but sat..also maybe goin out with musi and the rest..so must see lol..wait for musi to say tml then..hmm..ok then..goin slp opps=X haha..take care ppl..nites sweet dreams..smile always.=)
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
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6:42 AM
hmm just came back from chalet..actually not realli..after the chalet..i went play bowlin with my relatives..haax..i keep gettin the lowest..hmm looks like i dint realli focus bah..if not i wont score so low de lol..haiis..donno..i felt that i realli chn into a whole new diff person..which i noe..i don like..i feel that the kind of person i chn to is a person veri sad and lonely..not happy even in happy occassion..the person i was last time..is a person..who is happy at all times..even i angry.i also happy.even if i cry i also happy.even if being irritate i also happy.even if being teased i also happy.but now..i just cant even smile..all my smiles now are so fake and so unhappy..i wish to have my real smile back..i don wish to feel so unhappy..and fake.i wish to bring my best mood when i go out with frens everytime..i don wan becos of mi spoil their mood..*srys guys if i spoil ure mood smtime..i dint mean it.!hmm..how..i donno how to get back to my old self?nobody teaches mi tat..and i'm realli at a lost..i also donno why i become like tat..i realli hate myself alot..!i have no confidence in whatever i do..musi once say if no confidence veri hard to live on..he say cannot hate myself..but i realli donno how..i wont noe how to tell him whole thing.cos i don even understand myself..i donno what causes mi to become like tat..he cant help mi too much also...smtimes he just don understand mi either..sometime i wish for a person to tok..let out all my troubles..but i kinda at a lost..i donno who to call who to say out to..everyone seems so busy..and also even if i were to call..i wont noe how to say..its kinda a waste of other ppl time..ppl also have their probs..not onli mi is confused..so i wont wan to bother anyone..hmm..tats all bah..nites everyONEsweet dreams..take caresmile always..=)
Monday, October 23, 2006
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10:43 PM
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mm..hihi peeps..well todae goin to my great grandma b'dae..at pasirs chalet..hmm felt sian lehh cos don realli noe those peeps..not close i mean..hmmytd..i went to factory..in the mornin was there to work..and ltr as my uncle not sendin mi home i had to go to my parents place..wait for them to go home..hmm..haax..my cousin was there ytd..well we chat alot..and she ask mi go chalet cos no ppl..so ask mi join..i agreed..but it clash with sch..on fri..omg!how..hmm ppl..help mi tell TLL i sick or wadever kk..srys..dint mean to bluff but i had no choice to..hmm ytd msg musi..he nowadays veri busy with things arh..first wash clothes wash toliets..now help to pack food and gardenin?haax..veri filial bah..hmm..although he nid to go home earli but i veri envy him..got so great a family..hmm...well.nvm then..he goin back todae..so sad he goin to leave his family again..wonder if this brought him and his family closer tog as one week meet 2dae..hmm..but don think so luhs..he great..his mum love him so much..haax..hmm..i wasnt sure wad i tokin now luhs..just treat i tokincrap bah..=)hmm..veri sian..nth to do lehh.goin off soon alr..will blog when i come back from chalet bah..ok then..bb peeps..take care..smile always..=)
Sunday, October 22, 2006
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5:14 AM
hmm..todae slp almost whole dae..wake up faster go watch gong..gotta vcd..=Xhmm..ytd i realli had funn bah i guess.in the aft mus msg mi askin mi if i still wan go beach..but no one was goin..but he said nvm he acc mi lol if nobody wan go..so i say ok..he say haritz wan go also..can then..ltr haritz say he wan go esplanade again..huh..==eee i wan go
beach luhs..nxt week sure must go alryte..
okok..we then agreed to go..so i meet them at 4.30pm..but haritz wanna go earlier so meet at 3.3opm..hmm..ltr i faster go prepare and meet mus there earlier while we wait for ritz.hmm..saw alot of ppl..xw and frens..kj and gf..feex and gf..hmm..ltr meet pam,ritz and head to esplanade..well nth much to do there..meet june and gene there and went there for a while..ltr head to newton for a while to take corina comb..aft tat they went off..we gals..headed to somwher else..
well..tat isaft we head to MABEL CHALET..HAPPY B'DAE MABEL..hmm..had funn there well..pam mum says we cant cycle..so we stay at chalet the whole nite..and chat..haha played true or dare..but as there was nth to dare we onli played truth..hmm..not a bad game..we stayed almost for the whole nite..and ltr waited for the first train and headed back home..as pam nid go her grannie hse tml..hmm..well nvm its still funn although its pass veri fast..hmm..todae mus called mi just now..askin if i'm still goin his hse makan..well i dint ..cos no one goin..except ritz meh and june..anw he was expectin her onli and not us..so haha..tats great..hmm..just watch finish gong..felt veri happy..and was thinkin why show and real life has so bigg diff..show shows happy endin..and its so sweet..but in real life..things aint so easy to settle.and its real complicated.and there no confrimation tat there will be happy endin isnt it..like in gong..inside palace life things..are great but bored..but things can chn so easily becos of shen caijing..and chn the palace way of life?things are great..but in real world..if wanna chn smth is not tat easy..just for example wanna chn the rule of chewy gums..think can be so easily excepted..pls..things aint so easy..hmm maybe in relation prob also bah..ppl in show maybe expressing their true and onli feelins..but in real life does anyone express tat..i donno and i doubt so..onli for evalastin couples..the one and onli..ppl stead and break and find other stead..some chose to patch back..hmm..i aint sure abt all this things...i just felt tat things aint so easy as wad it seems in show..so everyone must be prepare to face his/her reality and not blamin his/herself..ppl must treasure wad they have and not regret when its been taken away or lost it somehow..so lets fate decide..but somtimes..u have to earn it.b4 u lose it..somhow fate cant really help..it separate..so have to make an effort to keep it..maybe miracle happens..ok hmm..tats all.take care ppl..nites..sweet dreams..smile always..=)
Friday, October 20, 2006
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5:37 AM
hihi..backie.. hmm.. todae was super tired..cos todae is the last day of the week..and no more work tml!!!
yea so happy..hmm..tired but was hopin to go out with frens..becos so long alr..alr one week..ohh pls..its 7daes alrite..and no one ask mi out..and i have to work and work everydae..hmm..although on smdaes i get to slack but if u put everydae tog u will feel veri veri tired..hmm..wanna go out..but no money..==sad..hmm..miss sch lots.. and also my cca..i miss all the sec 4 batch arc peeps..hmm realli gonna miss them when they leave sch..i wish i had study harder so i could also get into express and graduate with them into poly or jc..and not..goin to sec 5 or even worse..ite..i don like ite luhs..i realli don wan go in..!haiis..each dae pass so fast..no calls no nth..i can might as well leave my damn phone at home..rather than thinkin smone will call mi or msg..LOL..nvm.. xi guan jiu hao..hmm..i still confused abt alot of qns..but i dono who to ask..as not everyone is free for my stupid qns de..onli musi luhs..but hor..i tok to him i feel i wastin my time..i'm becomin more stupid..haiis..not becos he made mi stupid..he so clever luhs pls..hmm..nvm just let mi be confused bah..well todae is fridae alr..yea tml i can slp late late..hmm.. wanna go park leh..hmm seems like nobody wans to acc..nbm..hmm..i sian til i wan siao alr..too sian at home too sian at work..wish i can go somewher else to work..hmm..musi msg mi just now..ask mi if tml we still goin out anot..how i noe..nobody confrim on anythin..don think anyone free now bah..except mi luhs..then don wan reply mi alr..nvm think he found her alr..hmm nvm..i wan go back sch!!!!i wan see TLLi wan see BOCKi wan see XINi wan see XIUi wan see many more luhs..hmm..and also..our class de.. ah dai class and 4/2hmm..sian..ok luhs..nth to blog alr..hmm..happy to recieve gdnite msg..just happyso bb..take care ppl..smile always..=)
Monday, October 16, 2006
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7:28 AM
hihi..
this will be my first entry for this new blog..
hmm wanna thx pam alot for helpin mi with this blog..
i'm too noobs luhs..
everythin also donno still have to trouble others..
anw thx alot..this blog is great..
hmm..
this week and last week i have been workin at my uncle's place..
hmm durin the first few daes work wasnt tat tirin luhs..
cos nth to pack onli do paper work..
so i slack quite alot..
but this week goods have been comin in and my uncle and mi pack the things till we blur..
TOO MUCH ALR..
so tired luhs..
hmm i wonder how my uncle manage to carry and pack all those stuff when i feel veri veri tired after packin onli ABIT.
hmm so pitiful luhs..nvm now i'm here to help him.=)
well..ytd was von b'dae..
happy birthdae vonnie..
srys dint get to celebrate with u..but guess others have celebrated? srys gotta work so werent free..but sure gettin u smth...
hmm..
feelin lost and blue..
just gotta myself out of probs..
hmm guys..realli srys for wadever happen..
i hope ure can forgive mi..
new frens again alrite..
hmm after this i still feel veri bad abt myself..i just cant forget luhs..
hmm..well tml still gotta work..nvm just work hard bah..
haiis still nid to pay my mum back money..cos i spent alot..LOL..
well i realli donno whether i should realli forget it..
i realli lost.. i nid smone to direct mi..haiis looks like no one is free for mi now..
hmmm..
for this week i can just say.. when i'm alone..i'm sad..
but when i'm workin..i could forget all the unhappiness..as my mind is all abt wad to pack nxt so on so fore.. well i donno wad to do.. i don wish to feel unhappy anymore..
last time i ask musi smth..abt smth i wish to noe myself..its not related to him or anyone luhs
he replied mi.."i cared but wont let others noe"
but if u care..the person u carin doesnt noe u cared when u don even ask or show any concern..
so is this call care?
hmm i realli don understand a single thing he says..
so i think i'm just wastin my msg..LOL
ppl have to be brave to do bigg things..
but smth being brave might not be the ryte thing as u nv noe wad could be the consequences..
like for example"wanted to to say smth but but don dare..maybe cos ppl will reject or scold or wadever..but if nv say or do..maybe will regret for life isnt it..but there's still a risk in doin anythin.."
maybe tats why ppl think twice before doin anythin?
haha..hmm..so sian at home..
now i'm attract to a korean show.."gong"
its so nice luhs..
haha..but dint get to watch full..i watch from the middle..and also 9pm channel 8 donno wad show..but its nice also..haax..so gonna watch ltr..
hmm.. exam over.. veri nervous abt the results..i regretted not studyin harder for it..
i veri scare i would let my parents disappointed..
hmm goin back sch on the 26th.. and also 30th and two weeks after tat..
cos of report books..and our e3 camp..
tired.
hmm goin gentin with family on the 25th 26th and 27th of nov..and having chalet on the 10th 11th 12th of nov..
lookin forward to everything..REALLI..
esp our class chalet..but now i just feel i don dare to go..like no face..
hmm..i dono.
hmm..nth to blog maybe on sat then slowly blog luhs..
gtg..
bb ppl..take care alryte..
nites..happy workin everyONE and smile always..=)
sweet dreams.
